orangeville

2009-09-09T00:19:00.002+08:00

hello you.

2PM IS WITHOUT THE GREATEST HOTTEST LEADER OF ALL TIME.
THE PETITION HITS 17 K.
HOTTEST TRIED TO STOP JAY PARK FROM ENTERING THE GANTRY.
ALL TO NO AVAIL.
THE GUY WHO SMILED
THE GUY WHO WAVED THRU THE GLASS DOORS A YEAR BACK.
THE GUY IS BACK IN SEATTLE
ALL BECAUSE YOU.
YOU SPREAD RUMOURS
YOU SAID A STORY 4 YEARS BACK
YOU DIDNT GIVE HIM A CHANCE TO SPEAK UP

TELL ME WAT HE DID WRONG
TELL ME HOW MANY PPL SUPPORTED HIS BACK
TELL ME WHY YOU DIDNT GIVE HIM A CHANCE
TELL ME WHY THE SUICIDE PETITION ON DAUM
TELL ME YOU HATE HIM
TELL ME WHY YOU HATE 2PM

I WONT FORGIVE YOU.
I'LL FIGHT YOU WITH HOTTEST
YOU MOTHER FUCKING BITCH

to RCREW,
thank you.
we'll fight this as one.
2pm is not 1 without 7
we'll be there for each other
i love you all. thanks for the chaotic updates throughtout the afternoon.
we'll be as one.

gervina, hwee see, yanti, yuxiang, alden, wenkiong
thanks for the encouragement.
the strength to go through such a dificult moment for a puny fan like me.
thank you. ill be stronger.

i wont be okay.
and you know it.
1/2 my life is gone.
tell me wat to do now.
tell me my life isnt the same anymore.
i'll fight back you moron.
watch me.

2pm <3

(dont irritate me for now. for now, its war)

2009-08-17T01:12:00.002+08:00

its the final week of internship.
how time really flies.
i was supposed to be doing a research for asian geo society and i go bored.
used the "waste" research paper and started drawing onion family
2PM ONION FAMILY
to be exact.

then hweesee drew ss501 hair. O.O
haha.

go figure (:

2009-08-09T01:14:00.001+08:00

i don't blog often. try tweeter. (:

2009-08-09T01:12:00.001+08:00

i took Mr D60 out for a walk the other day.

& did i have to say i love junho?

2009-07-19T01:32:00.003+08:00

i felt like a fangirl. coming to a concert to meet 5 extremely good looking guys dancing to my favourite tunes on ipod.

& of course, disappearing for 7 weeks asnt good enough, i came to school with a bandage hand. which was upsetting.

alden koh, lincoln ting, kevin chan, neo wenkiong, low yuxiang. thank you (:

i had a great deal of fun. ur my ship jeom manjeome ship jeom. (:

on the other hand. happy birthday jasmine tan(:

that card. haha abit crude lah. lol.

and a great deal of friends.

fazee, gervina, shujun, mingxi, janice, penghui, yijun, mindy, xuen, bengkai, amous, weijun, fadzli, wan.

the list goes on.

i suddenly feel the urge of packing my stuff and leave my company. things hasnt been well there either.

2009-07-13T00:28:00.002+08:00

tuti's last day at work is this week.

i think i'll spend more time on the net this week.

but, your goodbye stage is 19th july!

OHMYGAWD. WHY?!

HOW?!

)))))))))))))):

i lost all my chasing vibes already.

it just dissapeared. cus it went away.

cus we dont feel special anymore.

& great. i twisted my pinky this morning

& ive gotten my hand to a great used of bandage for the week.

and mum just told me, my dear best friend is quarantined with a suspect case of H1N1 (shwine flu).

i better give him a call tmr.

jaebeom, stop dancing to chaeyon's shake. just stop it. haha(:

2009-06-24T16:34:00.011+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY, Nichkhun Buck Horvejkul (นิชคุณ หรเวชกุล), 닉쿤 sshi(:
생일 축하해 ((:

my first post of you:
NICKHUN SINCE DAY ONE(:

i'll blog about you and only you, cus its your birthday.
ill make it sepcial cus it's you're birthday.
ive heard how HOTTEST waited for you at the JYP Building.
but here, ill send u a speical message.
you'll prolly dont know me. lets just say i was one of the mad ppl at the airport.
screaming my ass off for you and got scolded by the police for banging the glass panes too hard.
you appreciated the screams. you even thank us. im glad for that. (:

i remembered the first time 2pm debuted. and all i did was to watch the videos over and over again. everyone said i was crazy. ohwells. yes i was. i am. and i still will be. but im glad i did. it was great. the awesome moves. the awesome songs.
nickhun, you are my ship jeom manjeome ship jeom(:
10 out of 10 points. a splendid 10(:

then there was Only You. i remembered the first time you guys sang it on the radio show. totally blew my mind off the couch. it was insane. the first time i realised you actually wore specs. ohwells.
and the days of only you passed. really great time.

the day we knew you were coming to spore. the heart skipped a beat. it was awesome. it was fun. arrival and departure you wore red and the performance was great.
i really had a great time. thanks to 2pm & of course rabbit crew(:

the silent days of singing came and 2pm was in idol army. blahhs, fucking hilarious.

we waited till the end of idol army. and you just released again & again. i remember i had a hard time logging into the website of media release and used yuxiang's pc. i remembered i didnt chase much cus i was having my fyp.

i didnt blog much till that. and i didnt catch up with you anymore. i didnt realised how kpop travlled so fast. and i felt i was left out soo much.

i wish you all the best and produce more and funnier videos for me to watch(:
i wish you have a great year ahead. and practice your hanggul more.
i hope to visit you in korea someday. HAHA(:
i hope 2pm's fans are for real and not for entertainment. not for the fact tat everyone is crazy over you guys and should them. i hate followers.
i'm glad im ur fan since day1. will always be(:

to you once again, happy birthday.
(no, im not a crazy fan)

RABBIT CREW. TERMINAL 2. 920PM. THURSDAY. see you. be there or be square.

2009-04-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

easy to describe today. 1001 things to do. here we go~
this morning was a rushing one. i was travelling towards hougang with 10 bottles of chilli sauce (: and there was nad laughin her ass off me. she just finds it funny all the time. im super comical lah. so its was our 1st time after 2 years taking the shuttle bus. the queue was extremely long but yeahs, i managed to cut.

the morning was an ass. i was in the please-do-not-disturb mode where i finalise my drawings. and before i knew it. it was lunch time. there was potato. i remembered. and i then moved my barang-barang down to do more of my proE. unfortunately, i had to remeasure my dumb robot (can everyone get this in mind. i dont like robots) cus the measurements differ alot. sometimes i really wonder if those people doing this project before me, got brains or not. and i stopped measuring once it came to the motors and i pray hard the size are sort of the same. i had tuna sandwich amous bought from atrium. and we had a loud commotion about trading ingredients in restaurant city. i managed a little outer term of the robot. but more needs to be done to it. we got shoo-ed back upstairs. and i realised, i was suppose to find sean. indian pimp came late. and to to give a talk about the city bank blah blah. ok fine.

so everyone left, as i sat there waiting for sean. and of course Don, being a very nice friendly person started the conversation of our own exhibition and yearbooks. dont go on. ill get the ball rolling once im done with my fyp. no time to think of those for now. after the meeting, i sought help from the indian pimp. asking him 1001 questions and he helped me abit. of course not much. but i think essential enough to survive for tommorrow. then again for the 4th time, my supervisor asked "so how? ok?" you should know my answer by now. mr chok, don, sean, me and jasmine left about the same time. took a free trip back where we laughed alot. but in there, she went through again my project just like how she and my supervisor used to. i must do my project properly.

my day at home wasnt perfect. apart frm getting a kick by my sis in the intention of trying to wake her up from sleep and she got pretty angry. i had to run errands and just nice, dad was like "can you help me with dwnloading these songs?! its freeeeeee" -______- sometims doting is good. but sometimes it gets pretty out of hand you know.

so the feel good time started just a few hours ago. taking pimp's advice, i tried my hands out on my proE. its turning out fine. just need to make it better. tuti was being super nice where she gave me the most encouragement i need for today. thank you (: mingxi and me and our never ending stories of hahahaha! ok. cannot say. elson and his octupus girl, benny and his hair, guanting and restaurant city and the list goes on.

im getting pretty sick of telling myself how much time ive wasted and again im suppose to buck up. i do not know if i did wat im suppose to complete by today. but i did start on abit. but is this enough? i just feel like pulling the hair on my head. and at the same time solve problems. but does it help. urggh! i hate the fact tat i know my proE isnt good. and here i am, trying to make sure i can do it, but my damn mind thinks about prototyping. seriously, damn fuck now.

see you.

2009-04-26T23:58:00.003+08:00

the best performance so far. no crazy cameramen doing stunts. the lighting was great. the mics were working well.

today was like RECHARGE day. im all up and ready to face the week ahead. noth much of that sort but basically trying my best to meet my expectations to finish my proE by this week. i feel the week ended last week putting me on a positive note. my conversations with my 2 lecturers made me realised, the only way out of problems, was the fact that im always asking questions. i had a clearer and a better picture of wat product is. but of course my suspervisor asked me thrice if i was okay or not. which in this case, of course no lah. even after the talk, that 2nd year boy, "you look lost." "no, i look stress. cant you see?!" aiyoh, temper control lah qudsia -.-

so in the mornin, was a great day surfing channels on teevee, first was my weekly chinese drama, then moonface. haha great ghost nonsense on okto. i havent grow up from watching kiddy shows plus 2 hours of great boys over flowers. it was intense. of course i ended up watching the 2 hours straight of that and fell terribly with the sountracks. and the handsome men. i must say, most of the time, my thoughts were concentrated on kim joon. see, i must be crazy. he's handsome okay~ but yeahs lee min ho, really stood out. ok enough of nonsense.

during lunch, mum talked to be about several stuff. first was some magazine stash from elle. something that says about this teacher in some foreign country. seeing and living the life of a gossip girl. and mum goes on and on telling how real the story is to the real life. and its no kidding. "they even hide their hungovers behind their gucci sunglasses." no kidding. then next, she told me she bought this new book. which she relates it alot to me. "don't sweat over the small stuff. you only end up not able to look at the wonders of like if that happens"

i've more of my thoughts to pen, but it ended up fading away as i was too busy not to blog at the right time.
and few hours more to school. im starting to worry about schstuff. how ironic.

see you. (:

2009-04-26T00:42:00.001+08:00

i've developed three FUCKING ulcers and a head full of worries.

belated birthday leader park. can you please marry my cousin? she's insane over you. read her blog. LOL.

2009-04-24T01:15:00.003+08:00

a few hours ago, tuti and i were screaming our asses of punggol and hougang for 2pm. we chased them a little too late, cus she was jogging earlier while i was on my way home frm sch. we has our weekly dosage of american idol.
i must say, 2pm blew my mind, and there i was trying to convince alden and fadzli that im saint. in which, till now, nopes.

im back to reality. with 1001 things running through my brain. tmr is serious work. i promise (:

did i tell you nickhun looks super sexy when he breathes. thats every single second. LOL. <3

2009-04-23T00:31:00.001+08:00

HELLO MUS! HAHAHA HELLO!
YES YES ONE MORE DAY.
OMG MY NICKHUN. I CAN HARDLY CONTROL ((:

2009-04-22T23:57:00.004+08:00

okays i was suppose to make this a quick post. but because weijun is sending me american idol songs (: lincoln is showing his really good looking friend whom both of us claim he looks like nickhun and hajar being an asshole seriously. i have to create a restaurant city just for her to trade stuff. and she's like, come come trade with me. and im super noob running around the streets because i have alot of frens to take ingredients. ahhhh grrrr. I TAKE YOU JANGMOON THEN YOU KNOW AH! (:

today hasnt been productive. i handed in my owl drawing. lol. of course ugly lah. hweesee's one was nicer (: and i realised mr chok was free in the morning and i shud have looked for him to clarify my designs. ohwells. so i spent my afternoon chasing idols and a one hour nap and researching and asking opinions frm tzechow. i realised i have got to redo my proE in order to make it look industrial. at this point of time, i swear the whole getting and being stress is starting. my aim was to get my finalise design this week. so i could get down to buy materials over the weekend. but because there's fazee party, sat's all used up and because i know i cannot finish the proE by friday. argggh. stupid me. no time management.

okay, this part is just something that i feel very inspired to talk about. ive always been this negative person. something of that sort. its never easy for me to look on the bright side. well, i must say, the amount of stress i build up daily, is because im always thinking. thinking and ending up thinking too much. but there is someone out there who is always positive. very inspiring i must say this person. its alden. haha. he's very positive. always looking on the bright side. the day he asked me if my phobia is true, and i said i wasnt lying at all, he just told me to calm and down and stop thinking too much. it took me a gazillion other positive thoughts to put my brain right. even mingxi and fadzli are postive people too. they have positive vibes. really really inspriring! haha.

ok, i need a glass of water cus the weather is pretty interesting. im perspiring like an asshole now. and omg im starting to stink in the wee hours grrrr. ive yet to receive songs, arrange my tables and chairs properly on restaurant city. hahah, boy, you are addicted to the game.

i finally chnged my display background on msn to nickhun. in orange. im a happy kid (:

2009-04-21T00:09:00.003+08:00

my biggest fear, was exposed today while we walked home from school today.
i coundt control my thougts, nor wat was going thru my mind. i can only imagine bloody scenes i wished i could control. it was so vivid. it was so scary. talk about phobia. thanks mingxi, im okay now (:
alden, bengkai, yijun and the rest, im okay (:

calender photos of 2PM & 2AM, ONE DAY photos.

nickhun <3, taecyon, jaebom, chansung, junho, junsu, wooyoung
jokwon, seulong, jinwoon, changmin

one day: time for confession, time for change (:

2PM photoshoot. album covers & overdue exr photos

2009-04-20T01:34:00.002+08:00

everyone has every right to say im crazy now. i know another set of 19 photos of 2pm after a massive 19 gifs i dwnloaded yest and a set of photos realeased on the their song date itself. ohwells. i miss khun. wat to do.

the week's been hectic i guess. all the sleepless nights of interesting proE and drawings. and panel was okay. let's just say i have issues with detailing now. and yupps, the process of making.
the day we headed down to jalan besar, part of rochor and sungei road was increasingly crazy. my fault. sungei road was my fault. we had xuen whow was in dsperate of the air com cus it was seriously burning her skin and bengkai who was feeling super lethargic. so sorry. but i did get wat i wanted to see there. for the poor 3 souls, i truly apologise.

i just finish sorting 3 mini albums, and some other songs. its crazy. my mp3 does not have that much space to insert all these. but the urge of listening to all of it, is itching me. blahhs. i need a new mp3. but i want my lomo camera too. ): choices choices.
oh my. look at the time. im suppose to meet nad to sch tmr! yeahs! haha okies. i should get some sleep. see you (:

meanwhile tuti, lets just sat my blog is 2pm inspired (:
& i really love nickhun. <3

2009-04-19T00:48:00.002+08:00

thank you soompi (:

GER*: got difference. haha. but the angles make them look the same. see those smal gifs. i think you would be more confused now. LOL.

fuzzlee: 23RD! 23RD! COMEBACK PERFORMANCE (:(:(: <333333

sh: wow you still read my blog? haha. thanks siewy. how have you been?

2009-04-17T01:09:00.002+08:00

it felt good. sooo good.
nickhun. welcome back.

ill update soon. till then.
again and again. need to chnge (:

2PM. again & again

2009-04-15T00:34:00.002+08:00

the boys are back. this time. to accompany me through my prototype making of fyp. (i know i shud be rushing. but im taking a break now. not wrong ryte (: )

fadzli, my boys are back.

geun suk, give me some time. nickhun came back ((:

2009-04-12T20:16:00.003+08:00

im feeling seriously sick now. urggh. i have mucus running through my right hole nostrils and some nonstop clear disgusting mucus running through my left nostrils.
gosh. no wonder my doctor always tell me, i have a low immune system. ohwells.

i think i literally spent my weekends unproductively again. i mean, blahhhs. we had guitar hero at weijun's place. caught in the damn rain. and left my watch there. ): had sup tulang merah for dinner with him.

yesterday we went to arab st and a stop at haji lane. plus went to get my sister's ipod touch. it was at a cheap price! and the man selling it was super nice. i was amazed with the gadgets he had. plus, he's quite good looking. only thing was, he's married. and my mum kept laughing at me about it.

today my throat got a little too worse. and i feel goshhhh. but the medicine was helpful and i cant skip school. im gg to get better. im gg to get better. blahhs. and thursday is panel. can somebody push that damn thing into my brain. arggggh.

papers are everywhere in my room. and im trying to finish as much as i can before i meet my supervisor tmr. i got alot of things undone. and blahhhs. the panel is freaking me out. talk about the last time i had to face richard and don.

i remember you tellin me this "qudsia, its amazing how much courage you have when you emceed just now. but how come during panel, you just cannot ans us and looked at us miserably?" something of that sort i guess. ohwells.

so with miotv, kbs world, my laptop, papers, pencils nice hot drink later, ill try to complete what im suppose to be doing. and yeahs. get better tmr (:
something tat cheered my week.

one person who knows exactly how much i love nickhun (: yeahs fadzli. they are coming back (((:

& you. you were fun to talk to. just give me more guts god.

2009-04-05T17:42:00.004+08:00

here's the deal. been to busy, been to upset to blog. theres so much in mind and i needed time to sort things out. after getting an extremely huge blow (in my point of view) for panel. i am sure im still having pressures on doing things right. so there was the TP grad exhibition. plus this week was filled with the seminars and the grad show. my days were super busy. and i got worried i didnt do anything for school. ohwells. ive got to seriously buck up. cus my thoughts simply just say, im not up to standard.

after grad show. i met tuti. simply cus to pay 31 bucks for the shoes, my daily dosage of kpop music. and some stuff i poured about things that are going on at home. ohwells. im feeling a little better though.

exactly a week ago. i met you. i met you after 3 years. the escalators brought us back together. i saw you. the same you. with a different hair style. ive heard about you. when i saw you, my hear went.. maniapasoh. it was painful. i looked away and we passed by. just like tat. we became strangers after 3 years. how gladly i assume that.

so i was moody the whole week. i had anger in me. and i think i expressed it wrongly. i aplogise if i disgust you.

photos from the 3 events:

temasek design school's graduation show

design seminar 2009

PDI grad show SEries 2009

cus tmr will be a better day..

2009-03-25T00:20:00.002+08:00

a mug of mango juice. a box of pizzas. britney's voice through the radio. geun suk's voice on itunes. geun suk's face on the screen. its 12.27am now. im still awake drawing.

today was sort of productive but i realised i work better without the laptop on. thanks haz. she kept me gg with the drawings and the mozzies biting our damn legs.

concepts look like kids drawing lines and curls on a piece of paper. im just scared im gg to get fired on panel on thursday. which reminds me. 50 more drawings tmr. powerpoint. formal wear. blahhs. tell me again was today productive.

2009-03-24T00:00:00.002+08:00

i swear to god, i wanted to kill elle. cus i was in some depressed shit mood the whole day today and yupps i tot she was gg to make me jealous over geun suk but this little girl proved me wrong.

instead she sent me 8 new pictures of him & he and she made me smile.

my depressed day was overcome by geun suk sexiness and of course elle's nonsense. (:

hello faana! we are crazy. keep wall-to-wall talk. LOL.

2009-03-22T18:48:00.004+08:00

lets not try to kill anymore people with jang geun suk's pretty face & nickhun's seductive winks okay. i wanted to put more gifs there but omg they were hugeeeeeeeee and i got fed up. ok fine.

so the week was pretty erms, how shoud i say. unproductive. and i swear im rushin through now. yupps handed in 21 pages of research which i still feel it is not enough. took a look at the robots again and im gettin lazy to go to that automation room you know. its just boring, smelly and omg i hate to see my fyp product. watever. so i spent a day watching doremifasolatido movie with jang geun suk inside and i ended up crying at my desk. it was super sad okay. i mean he lost his memory and he was crying and crying omg damn sad lahh ): & i handed in my moodboard and i swear JS hasn't left my mind since then. and i had to google him and searched for his videos and songs and dunnoe wat not. i took measurements of robots 1to 4 but not detail. prolly just enough to sketch some drawings. ohwells.

we went to surprise yvonne on wednesday. it was a sudden thingy and it turned out well! she was so shocked especially when she say caleb and mario. caleb entertained us with his great stories about wrecking some school. shudnt elaborate much before anyone else finds out. HAHA.

friday was planned to meet rabbit crew after so long. the last time we met one another in december. i remember i had to go KL the following day. but the day was terribly damaged in the morning with firstly taking photos of products which had me and fazee and mr chok climbing chairs, stacking boxes. taking different lightings. and i ended up with a sore feet. we went back to the fyp room and i got a nap before we headed down to sign out. the worse to happen was when Don told fazee she has to do her modules frst and blah blah blah. for once my heart felt super sad. i was super happy shes' gg to do her fyp and i swear she wont survive well without us. for now we all pray with her shes gg to get to finish her fyp and eventually graduate with us yeahs!

dinner was at novena. something we frequent super often to chase korean idols. and yes we had alot of fun! we were told off at the foodcourt cus we were super noisy. not my fault actually. the girls were too hyper, they cant control their emotions. we had some fun time at the mrt station where we did some hedious stuff and you can TRY to find them on facebook. its pretty embarassing but at the same time fun.

TIN, ELLE, JARELL, Q, TUTI, JUNITA, KHAI, HAJAR & ME. blahhs, next meeting, all must come. then we'll do sorry sorry(:

so yesterday was spent slacking? and looking through some videos before i accompanied mum to meet J' for dinner. J' and mum had been planning much about meeting thus i followed. it was a great night with J' & of course my mum. and and and we had so much fun. hahah (:

friends for life. LOL.

okies i got to do my work. see you(:

2009-03-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

super junior is back. haha
hello china man hankyung(:

okay. so there was my brother's 20th birthday celebration. just us having dinner.
then the terrible one week of researching and researching and researching.
i was down with flu in which ive been taking medication. i only have 6 days MC. so i better use the time well. LOL.

okay. yes i am very stress. and super stress. i mean, how would i know ill be given to do something like a pipe inspection robot. plus, i got 4 robots to do. i know i shud stop complaining. but yeahs. im taking the challenge. wahahaha. so that explains the stress. everyone's being super nice in asking if i am okay or not. they even ask me to listen to songs. so theres like fazee (WHOS ALWAYS WORRIED cus of me), YIJUN, JANICE ( i swear this girl is under alot more stress than i am, thats why im shud not complain), TIN HHAHAHA she knows im stress even without seeing my face, KHAI! HAHAHA, tuti and xuen and mindy and all the fyp people. hahaha lol.

OK LETS CHIONG! WE WILL SURVIVE. HAHAHAHAHAHA. alamak i siao liaos. LOL.

definition of online friend: you & me. conversations through the net system. (:

2009-03-08T00:11:00.004+08:00

scream HANDSOME! O.O

today was a fruitful day out. i think i needed time to breathe.
i spent more time with mum than dad today. tat father of mine got all sleepy and went to meet us only for dinner.
ive finally gotten a bag for mr d60. its been a hassle trying to carry it around in some pink bag which i totally hate. its bright pink goodness.

i got myself a notebook though. but i prefered the one i saw at one page rather than the one i bought. of course it costed more lah.

when mum took a photo of me on her iPhone, she told me this,
"open your eyes bigger lahhhh"
blahhs. all the school work had gotten my eyes 50% reduced to its original size. blahhs.

im still nervous and worried. it doesnt get me gg anywhere but yeahs im worried. ok fine. you shuddup.

so cousin got herself through NAFA today. shes gg to be an art teacher!!! goodness. haha congrats dear. we shall meet for dinner and churos okay. and you. please go get a job. you only start sch in july.

chores tmr, clean room. get ready. cus its WAR on monday. rrrrrraaaaawwwwwwrrrrrrrrr O.O

mingxi: oh haha thank you. we have to meet up often. blahhs. i gonna miss you for 6 months too. haha.

2009-03-07T00:42:00.002+08:00

we sent lincoln off at the airport yesterday. somehow someway, 3 months will pass lyk the wind blow through my nostrils. (:
we'll see each other soon ryte lincoln. hahaha
greetings from singapore at midnight just now.

he told me his hostel neighbour is a korean. HAHA.
annyeoung haseyo! wondergirls arayo? HAHA. hanggul molayo. -.-

lincoln, i was gg through our design script again just now. remember the one we did for the design seminar. haha. the jack and dull boy thingy? LOL. but this time, the co emcee is not you. dont like lah. haha.

anyhoos.

theres so much running through my mind now. and i dont even know where to begin with. its been too short of a break. and we'll head back for another semester. another time in school where we strive for 22 credits or we should just forget about graduating. im pretty much sick with the sight of school. but i remember telling chester once, if i dont give myself this one more chance, then there was no point struggling 2 years in ngee ann right. i wasnt in the mood when i checked my mail today. i wasnt in my mood to even think of my final year project.

i had a little for a conversation today with nad through this freaking small web system. shes away for attachment while me. ill be in school. and when she finally enters school back for another semester of modules, ill be at internship. wat nonsense lah.
dear nad, when has it even been at any point of time, we werent on the same boat? it has always been right? and i do understand how you feel. sometimes we dont do things that are suppose to be taught my Him and we end up feeling this way. and why some people they do not even listen or heed his advice and follows, He still gives them chances? has it ever been fair to people like us. when we try to hard, try so much, try and tried and still there. and why does it seem theres no way out to certain problems. and why we worry and worry alot. and why some people dont even worry at all. i cant seem to find ansers for them also. sometimes at the peaks of stressful points, i wished life was fast forwarded. and i see myself out of problems. and i wish to see happy sides after the aftermath. but always remember this, when all hopes are out, when chances get slimmer, theres always Him, us and the loved ones. sometimes what we long the most is someone who is willing to hear our problems. go figure alright (:

2009-03-03T12:40:00.001+08:00

download the video.
cut the video.
make a gif.
and drool over him (:

2009-03-03T02:26:00.003+08:00

my world thru my fake plastic lenses.
some old photos taken while i was walking pass the art museum & haji lane on one fine morning.

if you want to know more about chalet, read yijun or gervina's blog! they updated everything. and im sort of lazy. as usual.

stupid tree block my view. i hate coconut trees. LOL.

HAHA!

PANIC! IN THE STUDIO.

blahhhs. i look so hideous.

2009-03-02T02:01:00.002+08:00

i wanna make changes.
i wanna be a new person.
i watch too many korean dramas.
i hate you.
but compared to you. im better off.
(:

2009-02-27T16:09:00.003+08:00

i spent my day finishing up the drama ive dragged for 4 months now.
and i cried at the end of the show.
something wasnt right.

i thought just because superman has superpowers, he was able to turn back time to save the woman he love. never would i thought, he would turn back her time so he woundt have to leave her.

if only reality was as good as what you see on the lcd screen.

2009-02-27T01:46:00.001+08:00

im back after a month. i'll take it slow. really slow.

too much happenings. to many things to do.

too many things in the mind.

i love you. and i miss you.

rest in peace with god jayjay. i always love you (:

i'll update soon. i promise. meanwhile.

the facebook is active. haha (:

2009-01-26T10:12:00.002+08:00

proE killed me brain cells for the past week. i swear it was terrible. and i could have given up 1/2 way if i wanted to. but luckily for me, there was the upmost hero, kaya kiong & amous totong! i owe them a big thank you that they managed to make the mechanism work in 1 &1/2 hours before cal2 shuts down.

i used the past 2 days to really rest. being in tat cadd room for more than 12 hours, i think ive developed a slight flu and sore troat. i would gladly believe it has something to do with the aircon. haha. so saturday was spent resting at home. plus cleaning the house. it feels as though im celebrating new year too. haha.

sunday, i decided to atted a wedding. just to keep cousin company. so funny. and my mum keep bugging me to take photos. LOL. shes becoming lazy already to use her own camera. ohwells.

today, we are all gg to the beach. for a family picnic. where many malays would set up tents to get the atmosphere of holiday there. my uncle said that spore would be heavy one side! haha cus we are all there. but.. hmm i havent done anything related to school work this week. i guess i shall spent tmr trying to complete some assholic stuff.

ive been downloading songs, so i guess its fine. haha. hmmmm wat else.. the wednesday we are coming back is horribe. i havent showed richard my final proE. plus, i havent started on any of the model making. and we are left with approximately 1 week. oh my. worry worry.

but after all that nonsense for a week. im glad i was able to bump onto 2 people i guess it will be hard to meet. mikhail and chester. haha. and they made me smile. (: LOL -.-

selamat tahun baru cina 2009 (:
tahun lembu (:

2009-01-18T16:10:00.011+08:00

sultan mosque. barbecue. kahray. lucas. prawns. fire. sultan road. icemonster. landscape. sun. raffles city. nanyang academy of fine arts. printmaking. openhouse2009 (:(:(:

2009-01-17T23:51:00.002+08:00

aiyah just watch lah. im a terrible video-er.

but this performance good. but not the beanie guy. no offence though.

2009-01-12T23:34:00.005+08:00

hey janet. it was fun talking thru glass window. i didnt realise you were beside me okies. i ad free lesson just now. in which i was too lazy to even to my work.

im so screwed for wednesday. ive not done my proE drawings for my scissors. i havent finish studying ete for the retest.

& guess wat. my doctor told me i ate something wrong today. and all i ate was nasi lemak at the new canteen. and now im down with diarrhoea. cool shit ah.

ohwells. im so screwed this week.

2009-01-05T19:51:00.002+08:00

hello. im not happy.
dont ask. cus you should know.
its the first day of school today. im dreading it.
but i managed to survive. i survived the first day of school.
and oh wait. nightmare is waiting for me on wednesday.
wednesday will be a horrible day. horrible horrible day.
you just wait. just wait.

im fairly fine now. fairly. i cried just now. i realised i had to let it all out. it was bad. i felt bad. but i had to let it all out. i think ive been holding it on to me for so long. thank you shujun (i think i will let u kiss me lah. one day okies one day), fazee, mingxi( thanks(:(:), janice, hweesee, yijun, gervina, xuen! (sorry i was wailing just now), mindy, wenkiong, lincoln (thank you thank you), bengkai (thank you thank you). yuxiang! haha.
ill be stronger. i need to. ill study harder. i will. omg. i sound so patrotic. watever.

im gg to finish up my spanish homework. and prolly get a rest. my stomach is acting up again. ohwells.
i got no mood. and nadiah's dreading school already.

okies. shall meet nazurah soon at the void deck to eat ice cream (:

2009-01-04T02:18:00.002+08:00

hello 2009! greetings from somebody who got lost in time.
im doing fairly fine for now. and i really mean it.

we had a great countdown i supposed. ohwells. my sister and i wore devil's horns on our heads for 8 buckaroos. and mum was liked "why didnt u buy the micky mouse ears?!"
ohwells ohwells.
ive been so busy that i havent gotten myself a planner. shitto.

firstly, i wanna send my condolences to ray & leo. their dad passed away on new year's eve. long story but yeahs his dad suffered from stroke. okies. we visited them. to make sure everything was okies. and yeahs, being friends and all stuff. its been great i suppose. kah ray you still have sec 4C. and shahida. she will help you clear peanut shells. (:

in life. one must nvr stress too much? haha. i know im one paranoid kid i swear. even my mum teases me on facebook cus im lyk worrying half of my life. lol. mummy, i remember the monk story okies. dont worry. must leave the woman behind. i noe i noe.
next thing is. when u fall down, you get up and try again? oh my. this is difficult. what if there is no courage. no motivation. nothing. will you be able to stand up? ah fuckk lah. i dunnoe.im so arrrgh depressed im so afraid to even check things on school websites. ah fuck okies. fuckfuckfuckfuck. im worring again. i shud join yoga classes.
ohwells ohwells.
i shall worry so that you guys dont worry.

thank you mummy, sister, fazee, mingxi, nad who has been always listening to me. ill be a better person in 2009. i promise. i need to get visions straight. i need a new year resolutions. before i go back to school on monday. i need a shoulder to cry on. and i knoe you will be there for me. like you have always been. i look up to you more often. cus allah, you are the most graceful of all.

i can make it through the rain,
i can stand up once again.
on my own, and i know
that im strong enough to mend.

2008-12-28T22:53:00.002+08:00

as i sit here and type, i cant believe 2008 is coming to an end. it feels like yesterday when i remember gg out with my family to look at the fireworks at raffles. it feels like yesterday when i celebrated my birthday. it feels like yesterday when i entered year 2. now, its towards the end of year 2, and sad to say, its fucking stressful.

2008, dearest nickhun came to singapore. with 2pm. and there i was chasing 2pm, for 3 days. no sleep. and many reports. i cried. screamed, lost my voice. and yada yada. 15 days of chasing last for one. everyday at square 2. i cried like mad. it was sad to see them leave also. why cant i just be in korea.

those were the highlights of 2008.

i lost a friend this year too. it was too hard to get over it. especially when it was near hari raya and all. i had to cry to let the feeling go. it was fun having him around. ill remember him. always. its kind of sad, whenever i passed the RC centre where we used to have our sunday classes and all i did, was give my bro that face. we lost a friend. a good friend.

today, is the new year in the islamic calender. we went to the mosque for prayers. i had alot in my mind. and i wished god would answer all of it. im certain, i might be crazy. or i worry too much. that explains the grey hair. fazee and nad, you do understand me. or maybe, you are the only ones who understand. does he hate me? what grudge does he have against me? what did i do wrong? can somebody explained it to me please. mum told me one our way home just now, that ur own preception of situation becomes ur own reality. so the way i see it, becomes what i think is happening.
i try to think positive. but i cant find that courage to take that huge step. i see everyone being able to carry out things while i am still back at square 1. you dont answer to my first few stuff. while people are progressing like some tooot shit okies. is this a test from god? am i suppose to be strong enough to face all of it. i am. i will be. i told myself. bring me to that courage. to face all of it.

so wat does the new year bring me? more misery? some answers to questions i cant answer now? i really wonder. i dont wanna go back in time. i feel like its dejavu. where 2005 feels like repeating itself. its terrible. i want to cry. but i dont have anyone to go to. anyone but my family. oh wait, they are all busy.

if it was the same problem, happened to someone else, how did that person react? how did that person see and overcome this problem? these thoughts come into my mind. im such a paranoia. its heredity. i swear.

am i ready to face the new year? am i sure i can overcome all of this?
does that make me a stronger person?
i want to graduate. take me there now. its so much of a hassle.
ive talked to 1001 people. i think i am crazy.

selamat menyambut tahun baru. muharram 1430.
& a happy new year 2009.
lets see the world and wat its store for that year.

2008-11-26T23:58:00.002+08:00

- i passed em3b test. haha. but another one coming up next.
- i got the photos frm dear cousin yesterday. but i will only upload them over the weekends.
- the 2pm syndrome is still there. literally there. lyk AHHHHHOUQ3INLEBIHRJJOWRBH3BJWJPHIENVWGUVBJENVWPHIWBJELNOPHINWE
- OKIES SORRRY
- then also, last week, my internet connection was down. blahhs. now, the computer shuts again. i dun understand my dad. cant he just BUY a new pc. grrrr.
- last for on is great. it helps us to cool of mad temperature down. cus i keep seeing jaebom in them. nuts.
- okies many more. but for goodnessssssss sake, i keep koping nickhun's photo on soompi
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

nickhun, i still love you! hhahahahahaha -.-

2008-11-16T12:25:00.003+08:00

i am angry because:
- i just realised i did most of my em3b questions wrongly. now i dont think i can pass the paper which will result in attending remedials i suppose? ): i only realised it when i was brushing my teeth today. wtf man. im so stupid ):
- i have extremely bad time management. oh truck. oh fuck.
- i havent gotten photos for the korean pop night 2008. so i cant update my blog. oh fuck.
- i failed ete. a subject even benjamin says the lecturer sucks! i agree with you. 100% hahaha.
- im suppose to meet you for lunch but i had to cancel it myself. grrrrr.

aiyah. shit lah. yesterday 2PM performed then the stupid internet lag lag. so i went for the campfire. LOL. its okies. theres this thing called youtube. wahahaha.

nickhun i love you -.-

aiyah. must change liaos. must chnge!!!!!! grrrr.
& i took part in ME sports week. oh dear. LOL.

2008-10-27T17:20:00.002+08:00

happy 16th birthday dear(: shall meet you up after you big O's and we'll sit down & have lunch together (:

was kind of shocked when i saw the nominees for the hey! gorgeous airing soon. haha. im not a huge chinese fan. especially on this kind. no subtitles. then confirmed dont understand much. so if i dont understand, why do i bother to watch ryte? HAHA.
so many familiar faces. and especially in PDI itself. omg. i wonder if its sabotage or they are just pretty. wont say names. but haha.

me: mummy, you know the hey! gorgeous show?
mum: huh? what show?
me: chinese show. you know see who pretty and handsome from each school one.
mum: then?
me: so many of my friends inside. dunnoe kena sabotage or really go nominate. then i saw brandon lah. woah. confirm can win one. i mean, the whole school will vote for him.
mum: huh?! really ah. ok ok. we also shall vote for him.
me: huh?! O.O oh okies.

parents are so random. HAHAHA.

2008-10-22T23:22:00.006+08:00

hello im back babey (: hahaha.
things have been going worldwind ever since i left this little space of mine but im back now (: haha.
theres so many things to blog & i dunnoe which or wat to.
i guess i better upload things related to the festive season: hari raya (:

this year's hari raya was trully amazing. cus its the annual time my friends will come to taste the delicacies my mum cooked. and of course, its the first time those ngee ann people dropped by punggol area (: okay okay photos.

11th October 2008

i actually invited like alot of people a first. but many coundt turn up this and that. this and that. but true friends will make their way trough. haha. so theres ghimsy with the broken finger, asraf, guru & kah ray (: yeahs. thats mengyee. kah ray's & ghimsy's secondary school girlfriend. i can never imagine how they treated her. they called her bamboo queen, and hooked the pencil case up on the fan and let it spin. insanity.

the girls came later. cus hazirah was busy dyeing nadheera's hair. -.- super funny. and nadiah came with an umbrella. haha. she ate alot. and i ate with them too (:

the weekend after that, i invited the ngee ann people over. its super difficult to tell them how to get to my area. plus, they were all coming from different directions. but i managed to. somehow. haha.

18th October 2008

bengkai, is a super happy person. i nvr knew why also. apparently mum tooked the photo and he just happned to smile. haha.
after lunch, we sat down and watched school of rock. which almost spoiled the cd. while they were watching. i had a hard time trying to contact those boys down. this ghimsy entered my house as if we were neighbours and left and came back. kah ray coundt decide whether he should come again. and brandon didnt want to come because, he dunno who to come with. so irritating these boys. soon after, all 3 came. -.-
brandon helped us took a class photo at my place. and later lincoln and yijun helped me shot a photo with those 2 boys. and we all end up arguing. haha.

hahaha hari raya so funnnnn (: LOL
hugged brandon and ghimsy before they left for home, and had ghimsy to send my class to the bus stop. i wonder how his thumb is doing.

school has started for 2 weeks now. everything seemed alright? haha. not too sure i guess. its the same environment, but different feeling i guess.
brandon said before, just come to sch for the girls. OMG man. haha.
but im happy these few days. even after that relapse. i guess, things do happend for a reason.
its rather personal and i dont wish to explain but im okay now (: i feel a lot better.

so my nose feels like a running tap. and school starts at 8am tmr (:
that person who waved at me. im trully thankful. you made my sick week. haha (:

p.s: the holga's coming. and i thought of setting up my own photoblog. inspired by amous tshirt he wore today (:

2008-09-23T22:37:00.002+08:00

i almost cried today. but like my mum said, what you always want doesnt mean you can get. & god always have something in store better for you.

for now, tmr is more important. i'll hope it will be a success. i planned hard for it! (:(:

ill be away for now. the house needs cleaning.

things to look out for:
-HARI RAYA (:
-old iftar photos with cousins
-ray's 18th birthday celebration

2008-09-18T00:26:00.004+08:00

2PM (hottest time of the day)

the problem with qudsia juwanda.....

Khun
Name: Khun

Full Name: Nichkhun Buck Horvejkul
Job: Singer, Model, Actor
Birthdate: June 24, 1988
Height/Weight: 180 cm/64 kg
Label: JYP Entertainment
Schooling: Los Osos High School (USA)
Blood Type: O
Group: 2PM
Hobbies: piano, working out, listening to music, watching movies, taking pictures
Debut Album: Hottest Time of The Day
Debut: 10 Points out of 10 Points
Specialty: piano, acrobatic
Nickname: Khunnie Boy, Khunnie Boo, Khun Ddeng
Ideal Woman: A kind, cute, good person
Religion: Atheist
Favorite Food: There is no food that I don't like.
Discography: 2PM First Single Hottest Time of The Day

fadzli says it seems that i always fall for the same type of guys. lol. haha

& yuxaing had to entertain me 2am in the morning while i catched those guys on the net.

insanity? probablly. ohwells.

dad wants me to not even think of not doing that job. he says he rather gives me the money than i slog hard. the truth is, he doesnt. so yeah, wats the damn point?

as for now, im still going. i suppose. i just have to get my ass covered up. hmmmm.

btw, that guy's thai! plus chinese. and he sings korean. the world is screwed.

dear mingxi, i miss you alot alot too. LOL. havent seen any of you since the hols started. haha. MUST get morning slot. haha. and my job. having problems with my dad now ): dunnoe how. but you gave a huge hint ah. lol. all the best for your job too (:

2008-09-15T22:57:00.002+08:00

now all i need to do is concentrate on

getting the IS modules i want (morning slot). i feel like a kiasu aunty getting that hello kitty. LOL.
moolahsss. hahaha. it feels so great to get a job. lol. (: (:

& i feel like buying a theodore. (: so cute (:

2008-09-12T23:50:00.002+08:00

too much thinking ):

i don't like.

for now, i've cleaned up my mess up links. to tell the truth. ive deleted alot. either its been too long since it was updated, so it died in the process, or it dissapeared suddenly. or the best, there isnt much left for me to read, therefore its locked. haha.

to the rest who still remain. be good. or we all know there'll be no more links. blahhs.

can somebody assure me at least a PASS in monday's result? im pretty much scared here.
usual day later. nad will have to open my results as im super duper scared to retrieve it myself. noobshit.

yes yes. im taking photography next sem. will try hard to get the morning slot. i dont care!
and wat shud be the other one? hmmmm. japanese? spanish? french?

2008-09-08T22:46:00.002+08:00

first, a good friend of mine passed away.
now jayjay is down with bladder infection.

poor thing lah. ):

on the other hand, a week of fasting has just passed.
ive been praying alot. i guess. haha.

prayed for you, me us. and all of you (:

till then. take care(:

replies to tags:

anonymous: who ask you do the buck teeth? LOL.

IFA: HELLO (: good grief. i better tag your blog. LOL.

farrhan: hello! my goodness. i still havent linked you. been too busy. i need sleep? no lah. i think my eyes turned to be relatively small after smiling. LOL. (:

isma: HAHA. oh yeahs. they sang pencinta wanita. so royston & shazni to do that. LOL.

2008-09-03T21:03:00.002+08:00

i blogged alot just now.
but then i receieved a call.

im so shocked with you leaving the world.
you've brought in so much joy during the years we spent in religious class together.

we will all miss you.
i hope your family is strong enough to face all this.

semoga roh kamu dicucuri dengan ALLAH S.W.T.

2008-08-30T21:06:00.008+08:00

okies. back again.

im kinda dissapointed i coundt make it for the serangoon campfire. was hoping real hard if i cud see the scouts performed. i guess not my luck. ohwells. dad got me a dvd player for 20 bucks. from the garage sale at the 14th floor. thank you aunty. haha.

okies. im late to post photos. ohwells i always do.

after the AM paper which i did horrendously bad, i went out to meet nad with mastura. this eggwoman (whom we used to call back when we were in secondary school), i havent been meeting her for the longest time. so i guess i had a good time to catch up with her. haha.

presenting: real estate business-hospitality & tourism management - product design & innovation
hahahah.

____________________________________________________________________

on Saturday, last week. i decided to tour haji lane again. this time with the midgets. its best to hang around with them. cus you dont feel short. it was fun. only wished i had a good camera with me so i could snap some photos. ohwells ohwells.

i got myself a vintage bag for 15 bucks, a trolley printed t-shirt for 29.90 & headbands for 12.90.
haha
spent spent.

it was raining non stop that day. me looked lyk i had a bad hair day, alot of paper bags plus an umbrella. aiyoh. like aunty like that. very satisfied shoppin i must say(:
____________________________________________________________________

TEACHERS DAY CELEBRATION(:

i baked the day before. cookies. and some turned out horribly bad. haha. first time experience.
oh yeahs. i woke up late that day. and had to rush down. lucky siewy was kind enough to wait for me.
and boey kah ray didnt turned up cus he was at COMEX. kill him! haha.
okies okies. so as soon as reached, i sneaked through the back of the hall. and as soon as i reached, this hyper yvonne and rekha screamed so loud almosy everyone turned. haha. so embarrassed. -.-
i met so many ppl. but not as much as the year before. rituals. see each teacher. gave them cookies. and had pizza this year! haha last yeas was a cake. LOL. i miss 4C. i mean nobody can replaced them ):

okies photo photo.
the only reason why school backed then was super fun, mr sebastian lee (:
i miss you. hahaha (:rachel de silva. top student in 4C. i nvr understood your studying methods. but haha. thanks for making life worthwhile back then. and and, the class board. i love it. LOL. & i love you too (:a year ago, i took the exact same photo with the exact same person. lets see....haha, brandon and me nvr fail for a shot each year. this temasek poly president looks nerdy in this shot. and of course, still as charming as before.i remember the canteen table peeps. rekha and yvonne, aiyoh. evrytime got stories to tell. and and i miss their jokes. its the worse they can come up with. haha. rekha you vagina joke still rings in my brain. you dirty lady.somehow someway the class looks lesser. with people working. and some left early. i guess the gang of us are still here. life was really fun with them (:larry teo, a professional photographer that day lent his support to help us with our photoshoot. no wonder the pictures turned out well! haha. okok, not ready lah. you press the button for wat -.-asiq not paying attention. which soon he did.and ze han is drinking. he still resembles winnie the pooh though.yeahs! nice one (:

hugged everyone i could remember noticing. haha. but i went home to continue to sleep after that. wat a joke (:

sometimes little things in life makes the most memories out of it (:

2008-08-28T12:44:00.008+08:00

worth to watch.
if you ever feel lyk falling in love with jesse mccartney (:

he's having a tour with jordin sparks. OMG so jealous -.-

okies okies. i go bake cookies (:

2008-08-27T00:00:00.004+08:00

4 years back, i recalled myself falling head over heels for this man.

he just jumped to fame with tat hot face & hunky body.

my mum said i was insane. and so did my friends. i remember evry well, that any magazine that has his face or he was interviewed was placed under my table in school. along with my vitamin C. bloody shit you ppl who took my vitamin C without my permission. LOL.

& so he spreaded his wings across asia, flying high in malaysia as a great actor i must say. ive been to busy with school. too much to think. and too little time to care about you.

you got married, with 2 kids. haha. mum told me ur wife was her ex-student. LOL.

its the holidays now. i bumped into the tv series a few weeks back. when i saw you acting as a lawyer. great show i must say. as for now, i finished watching the whole season. haha! its been great 2 days. i missed those times.

i miss myself 4 years back.

aaron aziz(:

18 years old. with a memory of a fourteen year old. im glad i must say.

on the contary, you're having it too much. seriously do not understand tat childish behaviour of yours. you don't realised all these words are meant for you right? ohwells, look here. and look closely. cus you're damn right, you read my blog.

from an under a nut shell person you are, you came out, trying to behave as in you're up there. your sense of cuteness disgusts me. and you are even trying hard to be someone that we can click to. i dont understand. and now, the personal messages are the same. its been hard huh? living that kind of live you've always hated. now that it seemed as though you got all you had, it feels great huh? ohwells. see here, the thing is, we are of a different path. yours will NEVER be the same as mine (:

2008-08-26T02:00:00.004+08:00

holga holga come my way (:

sent in my order form liaos(:

bank transfer next.

oh my so eggcited.. hehe.

hopefully will be here before festive season (:

p.s i replied all the tags i needed to (:

yupps kah ray. im PISSED OFF. lol! i cant wait to see you too. oh my i missed you & of course i love you. hahahaha!

2008-08-24T16:37:00.002+08:00

hi i'm back (:
HAHAHAHAHA!
after a whirl wind scenario of madness studyin and still thinking that i'm not gg to pass my exams, im here. sitting in front of my personal lappie making mad people cheer of insanity that i'm ready to blog. (i think i siao already)
okies, ive set aside the whole night to get this super duper long post done, so hope to see a tag or some eyes turned lyk a windmill at the end of my post. (short to say, i got long post lah -.-)

lets see, ive stopped bloggin at july 17. which means, i got 1 month of things to fill in here. die die. kill me somebody. lets see.

17th July 2008
i took this photo in the workshop while rushing for out product. i think. presenting to you. irritating seniors and dirty workshop.

18th July 2008
we decided to go on an ADAM'S road dinner and island cremery ice cream again.
while all of us are enjoying our ice-cream, koh weijun just wants to enter frame.
and if he cant enter the frame, his fingers enter the frame.lincolnlincoln..you see, i want to take photo. he also enter frame. urggh.yijun one of the last times we saw mingxi with her long tresses.in attempt, to spoil his solo shot. HAHA.a contented me and wen kiong. and a very squeezy sit we had to share.lincoln is a happy man. with solarize in the photo, it cannot detect pimples (:see, enter frame again. aiyoh.haha, the fingers up the nostrils, are bengkai's.ok fine fine, solo photo. happy?i swear to god, he looks scary.and the start of the boys with the 1001 poses they could come out with.enter frame again.now with bengkai. haha (:doing bengkai's seductive pose.hwee see's pose (:the 2 battle it out on dj max. -.-shujun & mingxi.and it feels lyk bengkai was sent frm god. haha.panic in the studio ft. low yuxiang (:first album cover. hahaha.enter frame again!i dunnoe O.Ook cute solo shot for you.i cant remember whos pose they were imitating. xuen's?haha. we all let the place very late that night.

19th July 2008
grad show exco meeting at vivocity. there wasnt much to be done. then since fadzli asked if i could join him to celebrate dexter's birthday, i decided to follow. haha. hwee leng and i left as soon as the people left for dinner. and went to meet fadzli.
upon reaching there, there was evon (obviously) sherry, chiatlin. and the track & field people. the house was hugeeeeee.
we played mah jong after tat. my first time. hwee leng taught me. haha. wat bamboo. and fadzli kept winning. beginners luck lahhh. grrr. LOL.
they played with dexter's childhood friend. gosh, wat was his name?me with mahjong tiles. first time okayy. haha

21st July 2008
one random monday morning, i decided to come back to school early to do my prototype for the mouse (eesh i hate that damn thing). and i saw something unfamiliar.
weijun looked lyk a good boy. HAHAHAHA. he certainly shocked all of us! LOL. and photos from late lunch.
a VERY happy gervina and hwee see i MUST say. haha

22nd July 2008
a post with amous's guitar. VERY random
23rd July 2008
F1 the Singapore challenge.
you see, im the only person with the different tag. haha.with henderson secondary. they were good. but not good enough. ):tampines secondary with the gang of NCC & NCDCC to support their school.wan & fadzli (:& guess who taman jurong is? HAHA.

ill update the rest soon. maybe tmr? HAHA. delayed photos are boring man. ):

anyhoos, just a gentle reminder, because i do not want to blow my top into outer space.
this little space i have on the net that belong to me, is very personal.
everyone has a diiferent style of blogging and ranting. i DO NOT understand why it feels that when im reading ur little space, is as though i am reading mine (minus the grammer and the cute ways i dont understand)

take my words for real. im back to blog. dont try me too far.

take care people (:

2008-08-11T01:14:00.002+08:00

i'm almost done with sorting out photos. just that theres alot not sent from the rest ):
forgot to include F1 in Schools (the singapore challenge) in my previous post.
i sorted out my songs. finally! (:
i havent study
i'm done with AM online tutorial. thanks xuen.
mingxi, ill update soon i promise.
my advid reader. i noe this is also not counted as a post. haha.
i'm gg to daiso tmr.
i love itunes (:(:(:
shit, PANIC! at the studio's photo. hmmmm. haha.

take care (:

2008-08-06T01:11:00.002+08:00

hello people.

thanks for dropping by this little space of mine.

i see the numbers on the counter increasing

& i see dissapointed faces because there is no entry.

i was busy, then i fell sick, then i recovered. and im still busy.

school work took a lot of my time away.

so for now, im on haitus. & ill be back once the hols begin (:

things to look forward to once i'm back:

- island cremery with 2P03

- night cycling with ME division

- night cycling with LAVALAMBS

- dexter's bday party

- webcam photos

- high school musical ice tour (:

PS: people with photos, please send them(:

2008-07-17T22:21:00.003+08:00

i spent this week on a peaceful pace.
there was no hurry.
ohwells, if there was, i practically didnt care about it. LOL.
bad girl lah.

monday was funny. i was already late of school. and i msged fazee to ask if i was the last one to be in class. this girl, being cheeky made my heart skipped 1001 times faster.
i rushed up and down the famous ngee ann hill.
and when i reached class, bengkai called. apparently i wasnt the last one lah.
toooooooooooooooooooooooooooot. so fed up. HAHA.
spend 3 hours in school. and went home.

tuesday, was super duper mad with terence, jin long & saleha because urgh nvm. HAHAHA.
but terence made my day, as usual, he acted stupid and jin long too. LOL.
so i was okies. we completed those stuff online together.
and my class came to see us.
they left for bukit panjang plaza.
and after i was done, i went home.
hours spent in school: 1 1/2 hour.

& so, wednesday was the "please take the vouchers from me" day.
decided to drop by temasek poly. to meet dear best friend and ghimsy(:
lincoln's SYO was giving out vouchers for HSM ice-tour.
and gervina &hweesee went to TP.
kah ray & ghimsy helped to spread the news around.
&they gave the vouchers along the TP bridge.
brandon came down to give me a big hug!
i miss my frens okies.
we left around 7(:
hours spent in school: 4 hours
hours spent in temasek poly: 3 hours

today was merely model making.
i had a good laugh with shujun.
shes super funny especially when we exchanged thoughts about Japanese drama.
left for late lunch.
and on our way home, bengkai showed his skillful soccer tricks(:

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& so this few days, ive indulge myself to old movies.
lyk those movies when i was in kindergarten or primary school.

i really wanna watch little rascals again.
but i cant seemed to find an online portal to let me view the whole movie):

Spanky is the president of the "He-Man Womun Haters Club" with many school-aged boys from around the neighborhood as members. His best friend, Alfalfa, has been chosen as the driver for the club's prize-winning go-kart, "The Blur", in the annual Soap Box Derby style race. However, when the announcement is made, Alfalfa is nowhere to be found.

The boys catch Alfalfa in the company of Darla -- "a girl!" The club's members try their hardest to break the two apart, eventually causing their beloved clubhouse to burn down. Darla is mistakenly led to believe Alfalfa feels ashamed of her, so she turns her attentions to Waldo, the new kid whose father is an oil tycoon. Spanky, Stymie and friends judge Alfalfa's punishment to be left guarding the go-kart day and night until the day of the race. Until that day comes, Alfalfa makes many attempts to woo back Darla including a visit to her ballet rehearsal, an undelivered love letter, and through serenade.

In order to rebuild their clubhouse, the boys try to fund-raise the cost of lumber. The littlest ones, Porky and Buckwheat, unknowingly come up with $500. Their school teacher finds out about the scheme, but Spanky convinces her to use the funds as prize money for the go-kart derby.

"The Blur" is stolen by local bullies Butch and Woim. In addition to having to rebuild the clubhouse, the boys now need a new set of wheels. They band together to build "Blur 2: The Sequel." Prior to race day, Spanky and Alfalfa reconcile and decide to ride in the two-seat go-kart together. They hope to win the prize money and the trophy, to be presented to the victors by the greatest racer of all, "A.J. Ferguson."

Butch and Woim make several sneaky attempts to stop Alfalfa and Spanky from winning the race. Waldo, who kicks out Darla from his race car, pulls a few tricks of his own. It's a wild race to the finish, but "Blur 2" crosses the finish line ahead of the pack, despite the many scrapes and crashes throughout the derby.

Along with first prize, Alfalfa also wins back Darla's heart after it turns out that Darla kicked Waldo out of the car, not the other way around. Spanky, meanwhile, is shocked at the trophy presentation when he finally meets his favorite driver, A.J. Ferguson -- "a girl!"

As soon as the club house is rebuilt, the boys collectively have a change of heart toward membership and welcome Darla and friends to their club, with "Women Welcome" added to the sign.

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the other movie i watched was 3 Ninjas kick back. i remember i watch this when i was young.
fell in love with ninja. and tried boxing my brother down.
ive grown up now. and i still missed those times. so here you go, the ninjas: rocky, colt, tumtum & miho(:

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last but not least, i was watching all the korean game shows and i came across such a handsome fine young man. (who is in fact the display picture of me now) and i researched on the group. i know im slow.

but DOUBLE S FIVE O ONE IS THE BOMB NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
consisting of kim hyun joong (who looks lyk yamapi btw) kim hyung joon (the one im in love with((: ) kyu kyu jong (sexy(: ) Park Jung Min (a little gay) & Heo Young Saeng ( he looks lyk renfred!)

so let me dwell on them okies(:

hahahah byes(:

2008-07-15T10:29:00.002+08:00

because best friends dont need to show the world they are close.

beacuse in them, they already know.

take my words for real, because im digusted but your actions.

i wanna drop by temasek poly tmr!!!!!

ill update

toooooot(:

2008-07-12T19:22:00.003+08:00

seducing mr perfect(:

watched twice & still in love with it.
not to mention, daniel henny(:

2008-07-10T23:44:00.002+08:00

3 days of solid thinking.
and i think im pretty much familiar.

but i still suck at photoshop though.
lyk real fuck lah.
okay okay stop cursing.

im feeling very cold now. maybe its the rain.
& im on medication already. haha.
stress until sick. LOL.
but the flu virus has been everywhere. lol

deadline is tmr. and 5 hours of chiong-ing.
i dont intend to win lah. how to win.
there always someone better out there.
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the funniest thing about being stress was,
the friends around me.

amous & bengkai are seriously funny.

amous slacks alot! lyk omg! HAHAHA.
but he does his work. and he helps everyone(:

bengkai. the creator of the group
PANIC IN THE STUDIO(:
& their first hit,
i do ST not proE. hahahahaha!

see see, humour while on work(:
1 more day.
and ill sleep for the rest of the week.
hopefully. HAHA.

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i met chester on the way to sch today. LOL. so funny. haha (:

2008-07-09T20:32:00.002+08:00

you know wats fucking irritating?

when you're given adobe photoshop and adobe illustrator. yet, the computer is not able to read and install this shit. c'mon lah, im rushing for project. and i have to rush to school everyday.
stupid laptop. stupid all those stuff not mine also inside.

i hate shared laptops.
and i want my hard disc back!

fuck lah.

i hate you also. you big nose mother fucker.

image heavy(:

2008-06-30T23:30:00.017+08:00

image heavy(:

15th June 2008
Father's Day

dined at balithai. cus mom said the food there was good. okies lah. cost a bomb of 200+ bucks. insane(:hello botak(:

parents(:
me & cousin.
not because he doesnt have a dad to celebrate father's day. my uncle was in malaysia. and this bugger had to came down with us cus dad wanted him to help us for our desktop.

botak hungry lah. tat explains the hand(:

the spoiler of the photo.

my so disappointed dessert.
there you have, the superman in punggol 21(:

21st June 2008
Shawn's event @ East Coast Park

basically, shawn did this family day with dover community club. decided to help him since, ill get 2 CCA points plus, nad was there and made me a substitute for the REB student. HAHAHA.
the station leader. nadheera(:
blahhs. out station was to build sandcastles with 2 cups and 2 lunchboxes. any other materials is to their advantage(: haha.
thu thuy(: shes the smartest vietnam girl ive ever met.
oh wait, shes the first vietnam girl to be my friend. LOL.
dear shawn. thanks for posing(:
then: amous' fren
now: amous & qudsia' fren
presenting lee keng beng(:
HHAHAHAHAHA!
tats the handsome boy! omg!!
nad told me, he's a ngee ann student himself.
shall stalk(:
aiyoh this boy so cute lahhhhhh(:
no teeth some more(:
to their advantage, this family actually found some very funny looking styrofoam. LOL.
see the durian, its esplanade(: HAHAHAHAHA!
SO CREATIVE!
a family(:
multi-racial(:
this was taken by a horrible photographer! lol
& its not me okayy
okay better. shawn checking on the progress.
& this boy, yes his name is brandon lee. LOL(:
the major guy. LOL
and see, handsome boys grp again. i kelong one. made them win 3rd prize! haha. his mum likes me though. got chance(:
cute boy((: ahhhhhhh!
ahahaha
ngee ann rocks man(: LOL

28th June 2008
Punggol Secondary School Performing Arts Presents:
SYNERGY
Nananyang Academy of Fine Arts
Lee Foundation Theatre

got invited by dear gerald to attend this event. went with nad(:
beautiful performers.
& yeahs. really enjoyed it(:

tong seng for lunch & ice monster.
followed by a little shopping((:

photos(:
lazy to edit. (:
guzheng(:
but became boring after the 3rd song. LOL.
chior.
the new head prefect sang with all her might lahh.
i cant sing for goodness sake.
he invited me over. gerald goh. the reason why i was all insane. and why my friends call me a pedophile. he's cute, he's handsome. and he's 15. ):
im old & short.
anyways thanks for having me over(:
yee zheng & mathew.
nvm the boy in the middle LOL.
i remembered how bad i was, when rumors said she loves kah ray! haha(:
ghimsy(:
the rock band. that sang everything in acoustic. so wasnt a rock band after all. LOL.
led by liew. the "berhingus" teacher. haha
the band(:
the finale(:
jun long(: the guy who has been harassed by dao huey ever since we cam back from the ug combined camp. poor you. LOL.
marcus. the participant of the UG combined camp is a prefect. and a cute one i suppose. LOL.
open ur eyes lahh. haha.
the 2008 prefects with the old lady there. (:
twin towers. timothy & steven(:
yee zheng and ........................... dunnoe (:
2005 & 2006 head prefects
oh gosh, we're old.

nad,me eric , azraini, zalinah & timothy(:

i'm done for now. so tired.
byes(:

2008-06-28T00:14:00.002+08:00

hello.
using my mum's small laptop which feels ultra small compared to mine. so odd lah the feeling.

anyhoos, sch was fine today. just tat we had little to do during ST class.
did some stuff then followed by youtubing. and frenster viewing. LOL.

AM was super confusing and yeah SOM just went passed like tat.
i stayed on for MES Annual General Meeting cus i wanted to see the main comm ppl.

and yeahs. had alot of food. me and shujun ate again. i was hungry.
soon left the room after talking too much, and mx, janice and shujun stayed on for dinner.

i rushed for the bus home, didnt wanna reached late.
74 came and when i wanted to get into the bus, mikhail board it too.
he said he got jokes to tell me. LOL!
weina was in the bus too. and farrhan. madness the guy stay in pasir ris.
weina told jokes. and i kept laughing.

then mikhail said he was gg for bible study. dunnoe seletar there.
impromtu decision to eat at jalan kayu.

so i went home, had a bath. then watched teevee with dad before leaving round 10.30pm
met mikhail and settled for prata(:
wah so long nvr eat prata.
and i ate more. so paiseh lahhh.
talked and laugheddddd. until i almost choke.
so funn. late dinner((:

left home in a cab(:

long day tmr. must need ample rest(:
shall update soon(:

2008-06-27T00:04:00.002+08:00

i got a

MESSY room
MESSY bed
MESSY table

& a MESSY life.

does that help you understand what im feeling deep inside.

2008-06-24T23:54:00.002+08:00

i'm an odd ball.
i shudnt have taken things lightly.
i'm doomed.

qudsia juwanda(: says:
i think u being on my msn is good! can chat more hahahaha
Chester. says:
HAHAHA
Chester. says:
still dare to say!
Chester. says:
SOMEbody added wrongly still no initiative huh?
Chester. says:
lol
qudsia juwanda(: says:
SOMEbody = qudsia. HAHA. cus somebody tot the person nvr online one
Chester. says:
SOMEbody must have been really silly. how would a person in ngee ann not come online?!
Chester. says:
maybe geeks don't.
Chester. says:
but SOMEbody must be thinking i'm so geeky right?
qudsia juwanda(: says:
HAHAHAHAHHA. somebody didnt think he is geeky. somebody thought he was really busy. just take a look at his frenster. so long nvr sign in. HAHA then suddenly sent comment
Chester. says:
haha SOMEbody must be thinking that going onto reflects how free you are. But that is not scientifically proven to be accurate you know?
Chester. says:
SOMEbody got to know that there's always time for FRIENDS.
qudsia juwanda(: says:
yeahs SOMEbody has alot of time for her frens. shes even worried when he reads his blog and asked if he was okies. LOL
Chester. says:
SOMEbody was really nice lor. SOMEbody better meet me for lunch oneday.
qudsia juwanda(: says:
hahaha okies SOMEbody gave up. so SOMEbody will meet him for lunch when shes free. LOL

three words:
i AM stupid. ):

2008-06-21T22:38:00.004+08:00

UG COMBINED CAMP 2008.
truly missed the fun ):
from top left: weijie, roger, amirul, yi qiang, alex, shi hui, wen jun, shazni, royston, yusra, marilyn, me(: , isma & nazurah.

blahhs. countdown, 2 more days till hello 74, long bus ride. canteen 4, 5pm. & 74 again.
projects projects. please end next week.
i cant fathom the fact that im getting back my results, 2 presentations and yada yada.
& after all that laughing yesterday, im down with a flu. at least i think.

the cough i got even before i lost my voice, its not recovering.
plus alottt of phelgm. yucky. LOL.
and the tap on my nose isnt stopping.

east coast was fun today.
& 2 handsome guys((: wee~ shot them with my camera.
so the rest hasnt send me the photos. oh wait. they wont send lah ):
no msn. nvm, still got keng beng. HAHA(;

so i guess, im losing out in blogging bout:
- father's day
- night cycling
- ug combined camp
- shawn's event at east coast.

byes(:

2008-06-20T23:55:00.002+08:00

5 mins to blog.
i need to sleep soon.
damn 630am at east coast.

anyhoos, filming was fun today. some remote area.
HAHA. and the mic was cool. (:
and fadzli was really good. after a few cock ups(:

LOL. cant wait to see the photos. and the video itself. HAHA.

went to meet alan,ron michael at the swimming complex to play fooseball.
first time in there.
and i felt damn odd. if you know wat i mean.

scream my lungs out while playing, and gosh, no voice. tadaaaa.
headed to studio. then when to FYP room. learnt last minute rendering from vincent.
and went to studio. laugh laugh laugh.
headed home with ron. HAHA.

ok. 630am at east coast. no sun. no breakfast. ):
so sad. 545am at hougang. good luck qudsia.

photos photos soon(:

i was happy.
very happy.
& yeahs, i did miss you. blahhhs.

2008-06-19T01:07:00.003+08:00

does it bother to you if i had the real chance on hoping by to your blog.
seek all your secrets out and having the real feel of wanting to squeeze you dry.

ok forget it. should not get angry.

i stopped doing PFA long ago. like im too tired to even hold a pencil. yet my body is gladly awake in front of my humble companion, the laptop.

east coast today with real estate business was madness. totally. huge event briefing. wasted money. and alot of time spent on waiting.

get this clear. QUDSIA HATES TO WAIT(:

cabbed home. wasted money on cab face ))))): bad girl bad girl.

had to thank shazni personally after what he did for during th camp
really someone easy to work with. with the mute attendence marker beside him all the time, i guess he wasnt mundane to tolerate my nonsense.

holidays = resting days.

why am i so uptight.
i guess i need to go shopping. in lyk a few hours time.
rushed back for pfa.
and the component design and development which i havent finish drawing.
draw draw draw.
i hate DDC(:

i cant turn into picasso overnight.
so my marker rendering. good luck lahhhh ):

lastly.
the world is super duper small.
who would have thought that the same 3-4 guys i met in my IS class,
the same 3-4 guys i met during the ME division night cycling,
the same 2-3 guys nadheera's IS friends are of the same class
which in words mean, WE ALL KNOW ONE ANOTHER LAHHHHHH
OMGGGGGGG
O.O O.O O.O O.O O.O O.O

terence come back quick.
stop diving. LOL.
we got presentation to do. haha.
jin long, dont forget your journal please(:

2008-06-18T00:57:00.002+08:00

i just cannot believe that oh my you're so great emcee for the exceptionally most embarrassing campfire is the person to look up upon to.

head prefect.
hmmm, how far will i acknowledge you.
& wait, im no better. ill admit.

the voice is back. but nvr NEVER the high notes.
cus it will crack.

a 1001 new songs.
rendering markers bought.
bras basah was the place to be. why am i not an art student?

& sleep now.
9am tmr at NGEE ANNNNNNNNNNNNNN ):

2008-06-17T00:06:00.003+08:00

i had a blasting time reflecting on memories(:

this is to weijie.
i LOVE stingrays. lets go fer another showdown. lets see, sarsi's from dessert bowl okies. im all out for it. rootbear's fine too(:
and and, dao huey pleaseeeeee. haha. strictly no FISHBALLS.

c'mon lah. do another competition. im so bored without the laughter.

nazurah.
this is madness. we laugh at tweetybird, weijie playing dead. laugh at guys who slog hard for money and fame.
and girls who are not shy(:

i want a holga badly. can someone please kill larry. LOL(:
back to project 2):

& & rendering markerssssssssss. blahhs.
chester, its great to know you're okies. smile more((:
& roger, stop slogging to harddd. strat studying you rabbit. LOL.

2008-06-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

Was tagged by Hweesee to do this.

Survey instructi0ns:Remove one question from above, replace it with your own.Tag eight people, list them down at the end of the post.Notify them in their chatbox that they have been tagged.

1) How long will you wait for someone you love?
when i realised that my feelings aren't seen, heared, felt, ill move on. but i don't cling much on hopes. & ill take a long time to get over it.

2) What do you hope for now?
i dunnoe? good health.
pass my exams or ill have to face kannapa and sarker. and face the world like a total idiot.
get over with the fact that i hate making choices.

3) What is the last thing you say/do if tommorrow is the end of world?
fall on my knees, and pray. be with my family for the very last moment.

4) Do you hate your friends sometimes?
you woundn't wanna know.

5) What will you do if your bestfriend has been kidnapped?
wtf happened lah. LOL.

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain.
ive seen one(:

7) what are you listening now?
the phone ringing. the fan doing its job. and itunes coming soon.

8) What your desired age of marriage?
25 was my target. cus 25th may. but then, who wants to marry me lahhhh.

9 ) Are you happy with your life now?
i got a roof over my head, food on my table, clothes to wear. im fortunate. i shundt asked for more.

10) What if your crush ask you out?
haha. go out lahh.

11) What will you do when you have crush that knows you have a crush on him/her?
well, if the reaction seems weird, isnt it obvious he doesnt like you. so forget about it. if there is no reaction, means both of us are dumb. ohwells.

12) What feeling do you hate the most?
when the heart gets pierced so hard. its almost too painful to say anything.

13) What will you do if you fall in love with a guy/girl?
when you keeping gazing through the photos, checking your phone every 5 mins, smiling when he replies you, gets irritated when he doesnt.

14) What are you looking forward now?
lunch dates... haha. i settled one with royston liaos. many many more(: food food(:

15) The most important things in your life?
mum, dad, brother, sister, jayjay, you, me, us, universe(:

16) Who do you hope to always be there for you?
my mum. the pillar of my strength.

17) Do you find life meaningless?
cus life feels lyk a big cycle. repeating itself over and over again.

18) Where do you think can find true love?
HAHA. in my dreams. so sleep tight.

19) Do you believe that there is 'True love'?
read the statistics on the divorce cases we are having(:

20) What's your greatest wish?
stop being indecisive you idiotic maron.

21)What do you think of competition?
i suck at it. i dun understand why on the fucking world we have to go through this. so wat does life really mean to you? moving to the finishing line first knowing you have beaten everyone else. but when you look back, do you really satisfy urself. or was that at the very point of time, you felt tat way. think lah mother fucker.

2008-06-14T12:16:00.011+08:00

haylo. i'm home. with a sexay voice. my msn contacts increased tremendously.
& i fear i dun have enough space. LOL.

im not updating about the night cycling i had with the ME ppl nor my camp. cus the photos havent arrived. and im kinda lazy.

i was blog hopping and i found this random handwriting wizard on brandon's blog. so i decided to try it. im pretty amazed on how true things turned out to be(:

View Report

Welcome Qudsia Juwanda, here is your handwriting analysis.
Most people with a severe leftward slant have some type of childhood trauma they have yet to work through. Since we didn't actually "see the writing", we can't tell if she actually has a hard left emotional slant, but if so... she has issues with trust and it is likely rooted in childhood. (hmmmm, i guess there is no point hiding huh? even this test can figure it out. -.- )

Qudsia has withdrawn into herself. She is reserved and shows her feelings only at times of great anger, extreme passion, or tremendous stress. Qudsia is an introvert. She makes decisions based on logic, therefore she is rarely impulsive. She doesn't find any need for expressing her emotions. In fact, she probably sees this emotional expression as an unnecessary waste of time. She has a hard time relating to an extreme extrovert, although it is common for her to be attracted to one. Many people do not understand Qudsia; it is difficult for them to really know how Qudsia feels. Qudsia enjoys being alone, and probably prefers working alone. Working with her hands is a pleasure.

Qudsia's basic nature is to look out for herself first. Although she can and does feel emotions, perhaps as deeply as anyone, she just almost always harbors them inside. (don't understand. LOL.)

The first time someone angers Qudsia, she probably will not say anything to that person at that time. However, she will mentally keep track of everything this person does wrong to her until she cannot hold her emotions inside any longer. Then; Boom! Qudsia will cloud up and rain all over them. And she will never regret telling someone off, because she knew what she was saying the entire time. She won't impulsively tell someone off. (hahahahaha! this is so damn true. lol )

Emotional stories will not sway Qudsia. She thinks totally with judgment, first considering every situation by the effect it will have on her. (true!)

Qudsia needs space and time alone. She will be much more efficient if given a job alone, rather than being surrounded by people. (erms, i nvr liked group work. but im fine with it(: ) People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Qudsia doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. (so obvious ryte its true? )
Qudsia will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it! (erms, haha, i shud keep my mouth shut at times too )
In reference to Qudsia's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Qudsia slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. (hahhahaha true!)

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Qudsia can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip. (dunnoe O.O) Qudsia's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Qudsia that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Qudsia also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Qudsia is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Qudsia's self-concept is artificially low. Qudsia will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Qudsia to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Qudsia is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken. (don't ask. very very true ): )
Qudsia is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time. (erms, yeah true)
Qudsia is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner. ( when was i a loner. grrrrr )
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Qudsia has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Qudsia fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Qudsia has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Qudsia seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Qudsia seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin. (true): )

hweesee, ill do ur survey soon. i promise(:

2008-06-09T01:52:00.003+08:00

don't lead me on.
don't lead me too far.

or i'll fall down into despair,
knowing that my heart is there,
but you, you were never there.

don't lead me on.

let it end please. let it end.

2008-06-06T00:07:00.005+08:00

last published: 27 May 2008.

today's date: 6 June 2008

ive been missing for so long. i wanted to put a notice to say ill be away till the 13th, but im just afraid by the time i come back, i wont be able to recall for the longest time on wat was happening in life.

i saw mikhail's tag, & yeahs ive decided to blog. ((:

and so CDD was a torture. and PFA was a lucky turnout. just that my hols are burnt up doing them later in 2nd week of hols. graduation was cool. just that we missed the event and i went home to get the rest i wanted. there was the PDI gathering that was superbly successful ((: HAHAHAHAHAHA.

okies here we go(:

firstly, weijun went nuts and crazy and gila during solid thinking class. he got super pissed off and me, i went to take a picture on wat turned out on his desktop screen(:
beautiful lines huh? LOL.

& so it was graduation. and i took this during the briefing that i ended up not going. LOL. the whole theme was nice and beautiful. ohwells. i cant wait to graduate myself. poly had been great on some parts but others, oh i wished life wasnt so hard ryte. LOL.

30th May 2008
PDI GATHERING((:

marked on my calendar.
so it was my first time holding the event of course with 2P03 & mr chok. the food was great. except fer the utensils and the drinks. horrible. the crowd was overwhelming. and i think sewing the sash till 3am in the morning was worth the while((: but yeah once again, the crowd was madness. you see people who nvr turned up for gatherings suddenly popped out there. oh my. and the seniors came down. hahaha. yanzhi got bullied. LOL. hahaha. and i played soccer till it rain. i got to eat stingrays and brought one home. damn kiasu. LOL. ive learnt alot. & you made me super pissed off. i took a bus then i cab home. and i was too tired to even open my eyes. LOL.
no photos lah. cus the rest all with photographers. ohwells. i looked so shagged in the photos too. LOL.

so after that was exam week. and yeahs we just ended. ok i screwed ALL my papers. i think. applied mechanics was just madness lah. i dun seem to do well in this. nvr knew why. since eng mech till now. im crazy.
strength of materials was a bearable paper. but it also means i have the tendency to fail. aiyah noob lah noob ):

anyways, basically i studied in school fer 3 days and studied 3 days at home. and weijun being a hungry person got innovative and decided to add combos cheese with pretz together. and it looed like the shaft question amous was doing on SOM. so yeahs:

and so the exams has ended. and my events management is this saturday plus a night cycling event till sunday. followed by a 4 days 3 nights camp back in punggol sec. how i wished i cud rest a little longer.

&mr chok said i look miserable today. oh my. got to really find that cure for eyebags. i hope it works man. this is ugly):

i didnt post this 2 class photos we took. and one was taken when we were touring town for product forms and aesthetics color semantics project(:

last but not least, CONGRATULATIONS TO BRANDON LEE YI KANG. NEWLY APPOINTED PRESIDENT OF TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC STUDENT UNION((:
im so proud of you. in winning 772 votes (i think). highest in TPSU's history(:
all the best for the journey & ill see you soon president(:

ill see you guys on the 13th
& i dun think my events management will be a success ):

2008-05-25T23:11:00.013+08:00

MY 18TH BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION ((:
(unscripted, non-edited photos & much more of crap(: )

I'M 18. & im a year older. a year wiser. a start of being legal. & i got many people to thank(: lyk to many. but as usual. ill give my thanks. ill write each and evryone's name down.

lets recap my thank you list last year:.....

23rd May 2008.

the early birds. the surprise party filled with donuts. the missing laptop. the singing of bday song. the crying (: hahaha. here its goes.

thank you EARLY BIRDS:INSYIRAH (you're away in some other foreign country & you still remember me. i love you you dearest cousin & be back safely. ill meet you soon you sweeties pie((: ). GUAN TING (erms, you dun have to wish me twice ((: ), CHIATLIN ( who held out his hand in SOM class) ((:

thank you: 2P03. the wonderful people i had for the last 1 year. all this shit we went through. thank you for the impromptu decision of the celebration. thank you fer the highly anticipated donut bday cake i got from you guys(: i love all of you to bits. & im thankful.

thank you: LEE MINGXI, JANICE GAN, GERVINA LIM, YE YIJUN, CHIN SHUJUN, SO HWEESEE, SIM BENGKAI, LINCOLN TING, AMOUS KHOO, NEO WENKIONG, LOW YUXIANG, KOH WEIJUN, CHUA XUEWEN, MINDY TAN & KEVIN FEE.
24th May 2008

dinner with parents plus aunty & cousins((:

thank you mum, dad, brother sister for gracing this event. ive sacrificed alot of this this just so brother could attend it with me since he was leaving camp on my birthday itself ((: aunties, uncle & cousins. thanks alot. to have met u half way. and yeahs. the money woo hooo ((: thanks((:

25th May 2008

okies thank you a gazillion times.

the text messages. the left IM messages on my MSN. the friendster comments. the shoutouts. the late messages. thank youuuuuuuu ((:

chorkiat A.K.A the muscle man. thank berry berrry muchhh for the birdy message. cracked me up ((:

Yanzhi & RON & Amirul. im sorry i didnt go to the BBQ tat i was invited. prolly because i wanted to spent time with my family. thank you sooo much. studio feels totally weird without you ppl there. & ill miss you ppl. be back soon okies ((:

NADHEERA (the touching message. & knowing after all this, im still strong person now in me. thank you. i love you & we'll meet soon okies. i promise ((: )

YVONNE (who remembers my birthday cus its one day after gabriel's. and we dunnoe wat happen to him & yeahs after all this yearss. thanks babe. i love you too(:

edwin goh. the senior. the cat lover. the funny person i talked to on msn. thank you fer the IM message you left on my msn. haha. thanks ((:

hidayah (cousin) : the same birthday girl as me cousin. the one who looks lyk me when i was young. thank you soo much. and sorry i didnt keep your number. kept changing my phone. thanks (; and i hope u enjoyed urs too ((:

ASRAF. the one who keeps 4C together despite the different pathways we already lead. thank you much fer all the years (:

PATRICK CHOO: the 26th may birthday boy. hope you had fun too (:

MY LOVELY AND SIEW HONG: the person who brings my ups & downs. and believes in me. and supports me. my best fren. & i love you alotttttt (((((:

nazurah: the senior turned friend. thank you soooo much. ill meet you soon. cus im held up tight now. seriously busy. sorries

ismawanty: thank you fer the same month bday(: haha. and yeahs passing the baton to me. i hope ur bday was fun too (:

FADZLI: thank you sooo much for the listening ear, the madness i had to put up with. thank you fer evrythingggg ((:

debbie teo: you still remember mine after sooo long. thank you fellow guider(: i love youuuu ((:

surin yeo: i cant believe you still remember after all this while. hahahhaha. thank you. was very sweet of you ((:

DINAH: you messaged came exactly at midnyte ((: thank you sooo much dear ((:

guang yuan: my brother!!!!!!!!!!! i hope you had a lot of fun okies. and our ideal hobby: photography ((:

JUNAIDAH: all these years of friendship. 11 YEARS TO BE EXACT & WE STILL ARE GG STRONG! i know you wont forget my birthday. i love you toooo bitsss and madness lahhhh hahahaha(; all the best fer ur A's ((:

CHESTER LIEW: omg you found out my brithday. lyk thru friendster i guess. LOL thanks so much. ur advice. its been great knowing you. frm all the bad experience we had together. hahaha. ((:

terence loong: the great big friendly giant i got to know 5 years ago(: stay gentle & thanksss okies ((:

BRANDON LEE: the farmer gg fer TPSU elections. thanks soooo much. to even remember my birthday at a busy point of time. thank you & all the best for elections. i hope you get in ((:

yishan: the only 4C that ended in ngee ann with me. LOL thanks for evrything. we became much more closer in NGEE ANN huh? LOL.

mabel sin: OMG, you still call me squid after all this years. HAHAHAHHA. madness you & i miss you. & see ya ((:

ashely: the junior((: thanks fer the well wishers. may babies rock man ((:

erica: the other junior. thank you ((;

azza: haha. i didnt know you remembered also. thanks dear(: appreciated(:

kelly: the junior frm primary school. you kedoubely hahahha. thanks!! ((:

SHUPING: OMG. OF COURSE YOU REMEMBER LAH BITCH! lol. i miss bitching also. and fazee's timetable sucked to the core ): anyways thanks. and i love you toooo (:

airiz: you nvr seemed to forget.thanks ((:

HAZIRAH:hello lah girl. its okies dear. at least you remembered. wanna go blading again? and see how i fall lyk some blop. LOL thanks dear ((:

ALDEN: OMG, you're damn sweet you know that? thank you sooo much for evrything. & u dun owe me anything. i got wat i want frm you. thanksss ((:

mikhail: erms, haha thanks alot. theodore's fan club member. haha. its okies. really appreciate((:

rekha: thanks dear. to remember all this while.

26th May 2008

OMG. THIS 3 PEOPLE CAME TO MY PLACE TO SURPRISE ME AFTER I TOOK MY SHOWER. THE PLANNED IT WITH MY MUM.

i guess tats wat you get after being super gullible lah.
they hid under the tables and chairs and i came out to see a mango cake frm breadtalk(:

i love you people. i love kah ray. i love ghimsy. i love siewy.

sorries kah ray fer saying you forgot by bday. you planned it so well. you planned it last year & this year too. im thankful for a best fren lyk you. 5years okies. & we are still gg strong. HAHAHAH.
ghimsy, the prawn eater. the one who alwaes makes me laugh at the funniest thing he says. thanks.

& to meet you people when my hair was utterly wet. madness. LOL.

random stuff i found out
this is for ASYRAF actually (: lol

hahahahah. okies okies.

thank you to the presents, the gifts, the smiles. and evrything else (:

thank you for gracing my happy event. for now, back to more work ):

2008-05-24T00:23:00.003+08:00

hello, it you are in temasek polytechnic or you happen to have a friend to be studying at temasek polytechnic, please be sure to vote for my handsome friend, brandon lee yi kang for a place in temasek polytechnic student union MAIN COMMITTEE ((:

promo photos:
all the best brandon.
i hope it works well for you(; good luck((:

2008-05-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

too much to handle for one day.

i think i was so fucked up by the whole thingy.

i felt guilty, self-worthless. useless. and yada yada. watever you call it lah.

i am truly disappointed with myself. not that i didnt want to take up the job. but more of the other things in mind.

& im afraid it wont be a success. i know all of you have been nice. you assured me it will be ok. you told me that you guys will all be there. so why do i feel that there is something missing within myself?

i withdraw myself ok. i didnt want to join. stop interrogating me please. i got my own reasons. my lifestyle is different frm yours. my time management sucks. & i cant get over the fact that im suppose to forget the whole incident with you inside it, makes it harder.

lastly, your news was the most shocking one i got today. i cant even think properly. good luck. of course, ultimately i do want to see you happy my friend.

i wished it was all over. why do i get too much involve. ):

2008-05-20T01:05:00.002+08:00

i just realised that thin people has more friends.

which means pressure to lose weight.
then i can see i dun have to brag anymore.
im such a nuisance. that layer of fats is a nuisance.

tmr starts the whole day of searching again.
i want you home. ):

2008-05-19T14:43:00.004+08:00

i cant blog properly now. perhaps after i found you.
not 36 hours please. im dying.

8 things you will always bring out with you.
1. cell phone
2. mp3
3. wallet
4. keys
5. hair clip
6. sanitary pad (unless im not carrying a bag -.- )
7. money
8. life

7 things you've done in the past 24 hours.
1. find jayjay who has been missing fer the past 48 hours. ):
2. teeveee
3. bathed
4. waiting fer lunch.
5. slept
6. staying alive.
7. thinking about my homework.

6 people you think about most.
1. jayjay
2. parents
3. siblings
4. best friends
5. him
6. her

god is not ppl ryte?

5 people you chat with on MSN most.
1. lee mingxi
2. mikhail kho
3. sim bengkai
4. seniors. (too many(: )
5. best friend(:

4 things that you'd wish to do in the following year.
1. FINAL YEAR PROJECTTTTTTTT
2. lose weight
3. more money
4. car??

3 objects that tops your wishlist.
1. HOLGA!!!!!!!
2. clothes(:
3. marie digby cddddd lah OMG.

2 meaningful things that you have done.
1. hmmm, save a kitten
2. lets see, getting pretty good in acting.

1 craziest thing you've ever done in your whole entire life.
1. being indecisive.

2008-05-16T00:19:00.002+08:00

lets see.
PFA presentation over. finally. im hoping i did at least a good grade. LOL.

oh the other hand, cousin coming over tmr(: yeahs.
gg to fetch her frm school. LOL.

examsssss. journallllll. homeworrrrrk. pressure. stresss.
how come so many ppl say i look stress and put myself on pressure all the time? hmmm

i thought about it much. its time i just forget about it.

i could be killing my hearts out on you last time. and the fact that we sound seriously okies now, i think something is wrong with me. ):

2008-05-13T20:39:00.002+08:00

ill start with blogging first before i end up doing my homework looking all insane and mad.
tough time. tough week. i dunnoe why. this can die.

im pretty much sure i was thinking alot on my way home.
i dun do this often. or at least not in an extremely long time.

it was interesting to see an "angkat bola" situation. was talking to yan zhi and i felt that gender, skin colour, size, wat type of boots you lick really matter. lol. relax yan zhi. more to come. sometimes boot lickers don even know they are boot licking.ohwells ohwells.

in this world, i guess you cant be a nice person to begin with. hell no, im looking at something back in return. i guess its all in the perception. fuck the moon, the stars and dunnoe wat else. why do i even bother to act?

i think ive got the wrong impression of you. yes, the first impression was nth. and i guess the 2nd and 3rd impression of you was the one i shud be livin with. yeahs, you're funny. yeahs i had fun. but when i needed you the most, were you there? all you could say was a sorry. and im suppose to understand that. i sound lyk a loser if i were to go on.im not gg to help you. not gg to helpppp./

ohwells i think i am. im blogging as if the world revolves around me. and i have tons of problems. not to think twice on the fact that the cyclone affected ppl and the most recent earthquake has got more lost than i do. im such a loser.

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on a lighter note, i went to east coast this morning. to recee area with my IS group. i swear to god, im contented. to be with them. evrything was ready. i paid fer the bike rental. we saw the area. and then decided to cycle all the way till changi airport. it was tiring. and my backside. cool. damn painful. but i must admit again. terence and jin long have been the best guys ive met. cus everytime they saw us girls dying, they made sure we are okies. plus points fer them. lucky girlfriends they have i MUST say. lol. after that, terence drove us to school. i was excited. lyk -.-
okies i sat in front. and half the time i was beating terence up. he was very tired. and drove lyk shit. LOL. passed by town area. and we discuss about the flyer. LOL. thanks for the ride(; i wud have died if i were to get out of there on my own.

only you made me happy today.

2008-05-11T01:34:00.001+08:00

the finally anticipated photo with mikhail.
aiyoh. not nice. i got ugly eye bags. thanks to drawing.

msn contacts increasing. which means, im deleting ppl soon. HAHA(:
nytes(:

2008-05-09T22:42:00.002+08:00

lets just sit down & fall in love again.
for me, its those 7 guys there(:

im losing so much touch in all the things other than school work.

ahhh. i dun understand japanese. blahhs. fuck.
WTFBANXGXSXGE*&^*%$)(

byes(:

2008-05-09T00:26:00.002+08:00

today's highlights:
- finishing PFA. (:
- saved a kitten and sent it back to its mother.

shout out:
i NEED boey kah ray & linda ang! CAN?!

thanks to entertainers for my 2 nights of not sleeping(:
you know who you are((:

2008-05-05T23:54:00.002+08:00

ill blog ill blog.
i rushed out of the house today.
all due to sleeping late last night trying to rush for PFA. (which im still rushing now -.-)
im kinda tired. so i slept the whole bus ride. frm hougang till clementi.
i must be a genius not knowing the person beside me kept changing. aiyah dun care.

fine fine. so it started pouring lyk some cow peeing and soon died after lyk my cat's pee.
lucky for me whos lazy to bring an umbrella. so rushed tat stupid overhead bridge.
and walked lyk a horse. and bumped into 1P04.
in which i could only remember bronte.
i passed by, and they all said "HELLO QUDSIA!"
i was lyk wtf?! oh fuck man, i only know one person. and yeahs. edmund. the famous edmund.
then i was lyk "you all know my name?"
"yeahs! qudsia watttt" (GIVES THE GLARE)
guess im slow -.-
walked with famous edmund and he kept complaining how much he wasnt able to go out during the weekends cus he was busy doing HPD.
relax lah. 70 drawings cannot be easy to beat. FYP is the best man =.=!!!

CDD was confusing. we could follow the first part. then it got messy. with excel that drove wei jun nuts with his new lappie. i was listening all the way until the last part, then i got damn fucked up. so just copied down.
he let us off fer lunch but gave us hw. im lyk oh-so-dead. ):
lunch where i met fazee. and we queued together. was on the way back when i saw mikhail at the fruit juice stall.
and there he asked again, wanna take photo. i tell you ah. serious no fate lah. want to take photo but bumped wrong place. who on earth takes photo at fruit juice stall?! hahahha.

rushed to studio to had the stupid lab sheets printed. and we got ms foo to help us. she's really nice lah. all his idea. (nt gg to say who)
had kannappa class. and we had fun trying with the loads. mindy keeps making me laugh. lyk small kid. LOL.

SOM was frustrating. ahhhhhhhhh! nvm
left for studio at 4pm to do the poster. and mr chok returned us the logo's we made fer our dpam lesson. was proud of myself cus i got a 9. hahahahahahha! madness.
left fer the area arnd the vending machine. spoilt vending machine. so pissed off. and continued doing the poster.
left with amous, wei jun & yijun on the hot topic of the basket. and decided to dine at MAC's KAP. we bid mingxi, janice & shujun gd bye.
and left fer dinner.
called my dad to fetch me. was eating half way when my dad called saying he reached already.
so big gd bye to yijun & amous.

oh yeahs. saw luke & hairi there too! haha.
okies back to drawing. ):

2008-05-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

the size of theodore's butt made qudsia a happy girl.
shes very high right now! LOL.

thanks mikhail for taking the trouble to print screen it for me((:

i need sleep & i need my adapter back. i just realised i cant live without my lappie. 43 mins before my lappie dies out on me. ):

2008-04-30T23:01:00.002+08:00

the only reason why ive decided to put up a photo before my post is because, you guys will be bored with allllllll the wonderful words im going to write here. LOL.

yes tmr is labour day. tmr is may. may may may. may's the month. hope everything goes well. the blog's gg to be one year old. hahahaha. i guess tats the longest ive ever kept a blog. not that ive always ended up deleting them. but at the end of the day, some hurtful stuff you woudnt wanna remember reading. tat also explains me not having archives here. even when some memories are meant to be shared and read and kept inside my clogged brain, i guess i wundt want to remember the rest.

i guess the only thing tat has been keeping me wanting to blog would probably be the fact that im angry. oh wait. im confused. i am. maybe it was just a short while. i cundt judge you if i only know you for less than a month. & wats with all that? we sounded close. and suddenly we grew apart. i cant get angry huh? i havent seen you in the longest time. and i wundt know how to react. prolly ill end up acting. acting that im fine. when my heart's troubled. and i feel i shud get an explanation frm you. we are okies. on the exterior. lets face this. wat if we go deeper? im fine im okies. we are frens. we grew close because of our extremely opposite characters. but i know you inside out. and i feel lyk ur a better person in there. we'll keep this at bay. & i promise ill get over it. and we will be back to square one.
hows school?
hmmmmmm. ((:

tuesday. i got lost on my way to west coast park lah. but yuxiang was there(:
and we played games. i think max is mad. lol. we played some games to make sure we can bond with the team well. ohwells. my team lost in the end. but we had fun. i think terence really makes a good team member. he even sacrifice his cushions frm his car for that egg game lahh. but overall. its because he makes sure that his members are well hydrated. and that he makes sure we are all okies. and im glad i chose him in my team. luke is one motherfucker. cus, he's so athletic. but, he's afraid of heights. hahahahha!wat kind of lifeguard are you lah. hahahaha.
overall fun day. and i got cheated when i realised the bus stop we walked to does not serve 175. and i took 176 with yuxiang and ken. ken is this ahbeng guy who speaks extremely good english. he kind of reminded me of vinson. LOL. so 3 of us lyk stupid stupid took the bus. the bus ends at bukit panjang. so definitely yuxiang cud find his way home. was lucky enough that the bus passed by jurong east library where i told ken to drop off. LOL. tat poor guy lost his ezlink card on the way to west coast park. so we walked together. and he kept calling his fren to make sure he can head to bugis. i guess mrt doesnt mak u go missing in spore. (: haha. so when we reached the mrt station, he randomly asked "so, you can go off alone frm here?" LOL. HAHAHAHAHA! i was laughing my ass off. if i cant go home on my own, how on earth i come to school. lol. took a train down to woodlands before i took 161 home. met shazni at the bus stop.

today?
today is WEDNESDAY. HAHAHA.
today was pretty much entertaining. lol. reached school. and got into the human congestion rather than the traffic. slept the whole bus journey though. LOL. met up with mingxi, hweesee & janice. and on my way up i bumped into the so-extremely-long-nvr-meet-but-msg only chester. he was with farhan. and those 2 baskets were doodling with the lockers there. haha. mingxi asked if that was chester, and as i walked i tapped his shoulder. this blur person, just turned arnd looking here and there not knowing. LOL. so i rushed back, said hello. and he went "EH!". OMG LAH. we havent seen each other for so long. and our timetable sucks. so yeahs. wait for lunch chester. ill meet u up soon. LOL.
classes were okies. except for the fact that _____________________________. fucker. hehe(:
SOM was totally switched off. and wenkiong, me & yuxiang talked about frogs. -.- all lincoln's idea to start watching the video on youtube. lol.
lunch was okies too. just had to queue. and and and. fazee cameeeee. hahahahaha!
then we left to studio cus we didnt want to hold up seats. and went fer CDD as soon as lim han leong reached.
so gervina & i quickly finished up the task clarification. and presented it to him. then reached back on the table to do the concept generation. took a while cus gervina suddenly was caught in a flu. and i helped her to think of one more idea. chatted on msn fer a while. i guess i wasnt irritated with the loud songs played on the laptops. since i was enjoying it. but i cundt understand why you have to shout across the room to talk when theres msn in front of you. dun shout lah. across the room also not deaf. -.-
then went to lim han leong for consultation. and sat there to listen to his productive replies i must say. was listening then i realised someone was the the door "peeping" inside. and i turned only to see darren! hahaha. i didnt see ur submarine lah. hahaha. and dun pretend you werent looking in. lol. when gervina asked bout the tutorial question, i totally gave up sitting there. and walked over to my table. lincoln told me darren was outside. so i went outside to meet him. and bring so much laughter lahhhhh. ask mingxi. damn funny. oh my buddha! hahahaahhahahaha!!!! funny lah you. LOL. so i styed outside to talk to darren and make me laugh. and complaint. LOL. then left fer AM. lol. met mikhail on my way to the washroom. but in the midst of thinking of wanting to pee only, i didnt answer mikhail and just smiled my as off. -_______- sorries. our photo how?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
(: ended the day with gg home and falling asleep the whole journey again -.-

my headache's better now(:
thanks for ALL ur concern.
ill end with a photo just in case you guys got bored reading my ULTIMATE .LONG. POST(:

2008-04-28T22:40:00.002+08:00

hello hello(:
3rd week of school. and i fell sick. so sad.
& IM NOT ASKIN ANYONE TO TAKE PITY ON ME.
you can if you want to(:

so PULAU UBIN trip was fun.
& yeahs. ill update soon bout that. in another post. filled with pictures.
not of me. cus i was looking lyk some pancake.

school's been pretty much of a torture.
maybe because im sick, and work is piling.
and CDD is not being helpful either.
so is the lecturer.
i spent today's lesson chatting to sooo many ppl.
darren talking much bout his halved-wing bird he saved frm some tree during his bball training.
explaning to guan ting how SOM book looks lyk an encyclopedia. and me being kiasu to buy a huge laptop.

lunch was late cus we all tried hard to get the extra marks for CDD only to realise LHL saying no one passed up the paper by noon. so NO extra marks. wasted 1/2 hr there. stupid dumb ass shit.
lunch at canteen 4. and mikhail told me he didnt see me. i saw jabez lah. i think im blind. ohwells.
prac was good. with bengkai & fazee.
& SOM tutorial was okies(:

way back home was horrible. the heat. the bus. and the stupid guy beside me.
he took all the air con leaving me having to press my head to stop the headache.
ahhhhhh.*&&%$^&*()
came home witht he terrile headache again.
but after the pressing of my head from the iDesire, the iPamper and many many of dad's OSIM products. plus medication. im all better to start my PFA drawing. which to me, is insane.

thanks to all the get well sooooooon pppppplllll/ hehe. never enough to jot down here.
ill finish my drawing. and im off to bed.
tmr is another long day ):

2008-04-24T09:01:00.003+08:00

credits:yuniza khoo.
okies okies okies
QUDSIA'S BACK TO BLOG!

after a week plus being on hiatus.
reason?
nah, she has alot in mind. she hasnt got time to express herself (:
ive been okies. or at least i think i am.

im getting more tired each day after the day ends.
ohwells. this is year 2 ryte?
more numbers. more projects. more late nights to do work.
more sketching. more friends. more hate. more love(:

its been a fruitful trip as in for this 2 weeks.
classes has been great.
i had the bestest laugh yesterday.
just ask bengkai, gervina, wen kiong, yuxiang, kevin and those in class.
mingxi has been great for making me laugh too. shes funny lah.
and gervina, a great partner. ill do my best for your can crusher project okies.

IS classes has been great too. theres another terence in my group. oh my. 3 terence.
how to remember who on earth im talking about. haha.
but yeahs, we've decided to hold some event. shall talked bout it when we confirmed (:
luke has been damn funny too. he keeps making me laugh. wat lah you. stupid lifeguard.
if i drown, you also wont save me. LOL.
MAX has been great too. can you believe IS class also got class rep?
haha you damn poor thing lah you terence. count money until siao.
ohwells lessons next week is at west coast park mcdonalds. haha.
play games. oh my. lyk small kids man. but will be fun will be fun.

yuxiang & alden who accompanied me througout my coming tuesday i guess?
funny lah the both of them. and yuxiang keeps saying how handsome alden is.
yuxiang, you also handsome lah. ((:

i had to write down a few things i have to do.
this includes,
- a picture with mikhail ( i dunnoe how long we're gg to drag this -.- )
- shi wei wants to hold a dinner for FOP main comm.
- justin's 3 weeks of mushroom soup is killin me. LOL.

but things hasnt been gg smoothly at home lah.
jayjay's down with a flu.
my dad's down with a mild fever.
and yeahs, my mum's tired everytime she reaches home.
which makes me to do the stuff at home.
i miss my brother. but its okies. im fine! ((:

many many thanks to:
-mikhail who keeps making me laugh. and everytime i laugh, he succeeds. LOL.
- darren, i didnt complain, but he made me laugh with the joke i told him. HAHA!. oh my jesus. lol.
- mingxi, who entertains me every night. for seriously, can tahan me. haha.
- justin, okies okies we'll go for mushroom soup soon. ill ask around who wants to go.
- terence in criticising EE's montage board with me. LOL.
- bengkai, i dunnoe wat you did lah, but we dun pull hair okies. not wrestling.
- chester, haha. the funny messages. stop crashing nurses lecture lah. LOL.

heading to vivo for lessons with mr chok later. hopefully will be fun(:
unless i got cheated by him again. -.-
ohwells. im having fun ryte(:
see you guys soon.
promise promise to update (:

2008-04-15T23:50:00.002+08:00

came to school early to do the fun 08 stuff.
ribbons ribbons. fer identity.
lol. cheapskate lah i know. but innovative lah. you think we rich meh?

lol.
saw Michael, Ron & Joanne. was her name joanne? -.-
so chatted with them. saw mr chan teaching vtds.
how much i missed lessons and how much effort i shud have put in if i cud turn back time.
ohwells ohwells.

left fer lunch with them.
saw yana and some other fop ppl.
these days the fop crowd is too much to handle.
ppl wave at you expecting you to know them, and you go huh? oh hello. (so fake)
truthfully, if you ask me to remember the 600 students i had to look after, of course lah cannot.
stupid
talked on the phone with chester and then went to look fer yuxiang
we had a hard time to fine where is block 39

some lecturers dun even know block 39 exists. -.-
and my IS lecturer is MAX!
OMG OMG MAX. THE CAN DO CAMPAIGN MAX
then he went, yeahs i know you.
the burmese girl
hah?! burmese!? lyk wtf?! burmese.
i kena nepal, indonesia, malacca and now burmese.
i think ppl eyes these days cock one lah.

okies lessons were at Innospark after tat.
max just lovessssssss innospark lah
but i dun feel enthu leh.
something wasnt ryte?
the time of the day perhaps.
i knoe i knoe, ive been braggin about this.
but i jut HATE afternoon slot lah.
aiyohhhhhh.

okies nadheera left home after she ended lah.
so sad ):
was waiting fer bus. then i saw GOH BAILIN!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!
MR MASS COMMUNICATION.
he ate currypuff then left to board 151 together.
lol, then he went to call his gf, while I called FAZEE!
hhahaha, told her everything.
and yeahs, so sad, she only 1 moduel same as us.
why god so unfair one.
why starting of school, i got to handle more stress.
why why why why why? ):
first was fop, then montage, then fun 08, then my fren is missing ):
so sad.

fine fine, bought some stuff fer school. notebook, foolscap papers. pens.
went home.

overall, i HAD a BAD day today.
but yuxiang was nice. i MUST admit (:

why do our conversations end up being hanged in the middle?

i got to improve on my english ):

2008-04-15T00:09:00.004+08:00

shes just lucky that all the attention on her is diverted towards him, tats why i havent kill her yet

(:
thanks to ALL who helped with the photo montage(: special thanks to fadzli & samuel ((:
& not forgetting, mingxi, janice, amous & lincoln. who wasted time in school fer that(:

for my sake: hehe

2008-04-12T23:35:00.019+08:00

FRESHMEN ORIENTATION PROGRAM 2008
MECHANICAL ENGINEERING DIVISION.

WEDNESDAY:
came to school at 10am cus shao yee wanted us to help out with the photo montage.
met the rest at the studio. not clear instructions frm anyone. so we had our own conversations.
and left for lunch at SIM.
headed back to studio and that was where i got really really busy.
met lincoln and i eventually helped him with the lanyards.
printed 188 lanyards frm studio.
then left to ME office at 6th floor.
tats where i spent 6hrs doing lanyards.
gt them cut and laminated.
and had a hard time trying to convince cynthia about giving me 188 lanyards.
i wasnt there during the meeting. ohwells
tat explains why most SLs i called were looking fer the caller. hmmmm, so mysterious.
after the meeting, midori, lincoln and fadzli came up to help me to get the lanyards done.
mikhail left to meet his frens.
while we headed down to LT 45. saw alan rehearsing. waited fer jakin.
then we headed to bunk. cleared up. and left fer dinner at kfc.
we realised that the place wasnt to fit us all.
so we headed to KAP's MACs. and had dinner there.
had lots of fun watching en block on midori's phone.
headed back to bunk. and went to wash up at student plaza
saw a frog jumping out of the guy's toilet and freaked me out. lol
went back to bunk and evryone got free and easy
i called some other Sls to make sure they were coming.
msged a few ppl. and helped lincoln with the movies.
settles some stuff and fell asleep while the rest took webcam photos.

THURSDAY:
woke up and wash up. got ready fer fop. was really messy in the morning. the SLs were late and not cooperative. was trying really hard to get them to work but was damn messy. freshies kept pouring in and it was damn fucking messy. in the midst of that all, i saw darren and yan zhi. cus they forced me to cool down. lyk really cool down before i collapsed trying to make sure evrythin was okies. once mr woon started talking i was more of relaxed. and sat beside the seniors. got scolded by shao yee caused i showed the seniors some "oh-so-damn-fucking confidential" papers. then mr chok said something funny. so funny that i really laughed so hard! omg lah. hahaha.
darren, me & edwin.
see, colgate advert. they had to stoop down to my height cus afterall im damn short wat. -.-
had serious gastric before lunch. so darren forced me to eat. met the PDI freshies. had my lunch and saw amirul. HAHAHA! HE FUNNY LAH! lol. dunnoe why funny also. i think if i remembered they talked about me gg on a diet. and forced me not to. LOL.
forced darren to call terence. and yeahs. headed back to LT.
started team bonding games and went to meet terence. so PDI first stop was at canteen 4. so i asked all to come down. and watched them. so insane. hahaha! damn funny.
then had to leave them cus got some freshies who got lost. some irresponsible SLs. then headed back to see PDI.
was about to play wacko. when my phone rang. so dumb. then didnt know how to use ms foo's camera. so weijun's neighbour aka izul taught me how. felt so dumb.
wanted to take a photo of being piggyback. so wen kiong helped to carry the heavy me. (:
the AEROSPACE TECHNOLOGY boys. lol. tats muscle man. you know the guy sellin his house on tv? he's the one wearing the jacket.
this is tallest building station. the creative thing bout PDI students was that, they use humans to represent tower. hahaha. so smart. so yeahs.
this amos guy. is fucking funny. i dunnoe why. he makes me laugh. lol

im taller than bengkai (:
1P04. the guy in blue got fooled by me to riding a buggy. he's damn funny. got cheated badly.
1P03. this class insane also. madness lah.
this is justin. the guy who craved for mushroom soup. so funny. the nyte before he kept complaining on having mushroom soup. and told me he would wake up for breakfast at bukit timah market. when i woke up. he still alseep. he drank mushroom soup in his sleep. LOL.
dipsy drawing. mingkai, ivor & jasper. they damn funny lah. their station was funny. i 2 rounds dizzy already then those freshies 10 rounds. poor thing man. walk also not straight. then thought them PDI cheer before we head back to LT.

some debrief. then the freshies left. we were dead tired. but we went to collect the orange t shirts. then i went off with ms foo to collect the fantasia tickets and also the photo montage stuff.
went back to bunk to change. and rested a while. this time we all went separate ways. we headed to AL-AMEEN for dinner. then went we came back, the bunk was locked since jakin wasnt back yet. so played this mafia game thought my dexter and played in MES room till they come. funny lah. then midori suggested we bathed at ALUMNI. cus got heater. -.-
reached there. the toilet door is frosted. omg lah. can see inside. i so shy okies. cus midori keep saying. damn shy. had to bathe quickly.
then fadzli, midori, lincoln and i headed back to bunk. cleared some stuff then played some card games.
had dried mangoes for supper. really good i must say. just tat terence wanted to steal the whole packet. LOL. initially wanted to discuss the photo montage thingy then saw shao yee. then wanted to discuss donwstairs. ohwells. he then initialled the meeting. and i got super pissed off lah. cus he's instructions werent clear and he was demanding. at the end of it, evryone has to listen to him. the only reason why i asked fadzli and samuel to sat there was, i was gg to breakdown anytime soon. it the end, i gave the idea of the robot, while samuel gave the idea of the slogan. then he asked ming ken to draw. and telling us more than once on how impt the seniors ah. okok, i get ur point.
then vinson asked me wat happened. i wanted to say to him only. until he asked shao yee to come so i cud give the feedback to him directly. i didnt want to at all. but the anger just went in. it was bad. mikhail was beside me. and i had to drink alot of water to cool myself. then shao yee he cud take it. he cud take wat i wud say to him. and when vinson asked me again, i almost cried. that was the hardest part of my fop part. i was so much anger i hold against him. mikhail said he already saw tears. and vinson didnt drag on. so mikhail helped me say. thru the 2hrs convo. i learnt alot. and on how much of a sucking leader shao yee is. vinson assured me that evrythin is alryte and tat there the seniors to help me if i was to be in tat position. but i cudnt say my anger. cus i noe tat by next week, theres no them. and if shao yee is to shoot me again lyk tat, i cannot rely on them. which makes it harder fer me.
i learnt tat a leader has to be able to take feedbacks. listen and improve. tats what vinson said. and after the long ordeal. shao yee didnt chnge. all he was trying to do was to defend himself. ohwells. i gave up. at tat point of time. i gave up. i gave up on fightin fer my right.

vinson talked about PDI after tat. and edwin joined in. and edwin was talking about some stuff when he showed the rock on sign. then i asked him, "what is this?" this he went "angkat bola!"
lol tat was funny. the hidden meaning, (: dunt tell you (:

after tat, i watched alvin and the chipmunks with mikhail on his lappie and played some punching george bush ro relief stress. and fell asleep while watching the movie beside mikhail. lol.
tat was such and intense night.

that night, i got stepped on by lincoln, got kicked by midori. i had a group of orchestra thru the night. hears snores. loud coughing and gritted teeth.

FRIDAY:
woke up. and had my face wash. tapped on terence and he gave me tat "dun disturb look" okok. sorries. then went to LT. we were late lah.

they had course briefing. and my class mates were having a ball of fun entertaining themselves. damn creative i must say. has angust and pearlyn to accompany me. and dr tan mentioned bout the trip overseas. i wanna go. I REALLY WANNA GO!

they played some games in the LT. and stupid lunch came late. so late. and ppl started leaving.
alden ((:
this is MY FAVOURITE PHOTO!. lol. anyways, we're okies now. he's chester. he was the one who pissed me off damn badly during the camp. and he apologised. and yeahs. hahaha. wat else huh? okies lah. he's been good to listen to my nonsense. just lyk the seniors and my class mates (:

lunch was with the seniors. and they all scolded me cus i was complaining about the food. say wat phillippines dun have food yada yada yada. lol
and they exchanged to look at photos when they were younger. it was damn funny! i mean them. especially ken. cus edwin said this:
"when he entered ryte, he had long hair, longer than yours. he had straight hair, more straight than yours!" omg suan me lah.
lol but when i saw the photo. omg lah. damn long. so pai kia. HAHAHA!
edwin still looks the same. just with specs now.
while yanzhi and terence just matured alot.
dr tan sat there too. and laughed with me. haha.
so now i owe them. a funny photo of myself when i was younger -.-

had campus tour in the afternoon.
and ended with cheers and prize presentation at the end of the day (:
see PDI GANG! lol. damn good okies. we trying to let the spirit live on (:

heaed back to bunk once the thingy was over. i still have photo montage! ): under shao yee again. ):

cleared up the bunk abit.
and left dwnstairs to chnge to shorts.
decided to head home and not wait cus ill reach late.
was at the bus stop and saw mikhail. so yeahs we talked alot. on how tired we are. he accompanied me lah to take 74 home. lol. then saw weina, so weina joined us. the saw chester. so chester also joined us. i almost fell on the bus lah. LOL. lucky chester hold me. if not, confirm shy.
same topic.so i sat with mikhail. while chester sat with weina. then mikhail and chester headed off the MacRitchie. weina and i both fell asleep on our way home. lol.
was tiring. tiring.

had a gd rest. and monday's sch. and i got photo montage. thanks ah start the new sem with ur fucking face.):

THANK YOU ALL!
THANK YOU TO SENIORS: DARREN, TERENCE, VINSON, YAN ZHI & AMIRUL
THANK YOU 2P03: LINCOLN, GERVINA, YI JUN, YUXIANG, WEN KIONG, BENGKAI, SHU JUN, HWEE SEE, MINGXI, JANICE, AMOUS, KEVIN!
THANK YOU MAIN COMM: LINCOLN, JUSTIN, FADZLI, MINGKAI, IVOR, JASPER, CHIATLIN, WEI NA, JAKIN, ALAN, MIDORI, ETC ETC ETC........

cus you told me i look better when i smile.

2008-04-09T01:00:00.002+08:00

ill post before i leave later this morning (:

ohwells. tuesday was an hour ago. and i sent my brother off.
i told darren ill miss my brother lah.
wat shit man.
i wanted to cry abit lah. but then held my tears.
afterall he's coming back on friday.
and ill end this fop thingy by then.

ohwells. this fop has really brought alot of ups and downs.
and i trust myself ill overcome all this.
i had good advices from alot of ppl.
on getting to werk and yada yada yada.
thank you thank you.

okies. good luck to my sister being the only child frm wed till friday.
and good luck to me for the amt of stress im holding till now.

hwaiting qudsia(:
ill see you lovely ppl in school alrytes (: 1p01(:

2008-04-07T23:46:00.002+08:00

thank you to fadzli, darren, gervina, mingxi and chester.

thank you so much in listening to me. you're the top 5 on my "i need to complain list!" today.

very fucked up ryte? i noe i noe. -.-

thank you 1P01. because of you guys, it makes me realised how thankful i am.
thank you so very the much.

special thanks to shu jun. for some reason, the moment she saw the fire flaming behind my back, she'll come to cool me down. she's been really nice since camp. thank you!

and my brother's leaving tmr. so sad ):
will i cry?

2008-04-06T15:26:00.002+08:00

im trying to prepare myself for tomorrow.
ive asked alot of ppl on what i shud do, what i shud have done.
and the results are clear.

a long straight hair for me.
laugh laugh laugh
funny wat.
qudsia with super straight hair. when was the last time she didnt tie her hair?
hmmmmm.
lets see tmr's reaction.

the only reason why im writing this here is because i want to be mentally prepared.
i know that you are gg to say bout it. im just waiting for you to say it.

ohwells. another story came frm one of the trusted ppl ive met.
seriously speaking, its irritating, its boring cus its always the same story.
maybe you should dig a hole, and cover you head in it.
think about the things you said, things oyu have done.
self proclaim you are smart. so start using your brain right i guess.
i cannot tolerate nonsense. even when it wasnt me you are aiming.
but if its the ppl i trust and the ppl i care, i wundt hesitate.

2008-04-04T09:32:00.002+08:00

so i woke up this morning to read my emails.

and finally mr lord adam showed up on msn.

if you didnt know the story, this lord adam's email address was
on my msn adding list.
during that time, i tot it was one of those FOP ppl who got my email address.
but after gg thru mingkai,justin and some others, i realised its not the FOP people.

then i thought it was one of the seniors.asked peiru,darren and terrence only to find out again that they do not know this person again.

waited till today. ands he popped out on msn.
and guess wat?!
i dunnoe this person.
he talks to me in sooo much gibberish of english that i myself cannot understand.
and told me he saw my email address on emails sent.
-.-
so desperate to add ppl on your msn meh?
and asked me bout my display picture. LOL.
ohwells. i blocked him and deleted him frm msn.

that why msn is a good chattin device (:

2008-04-03T11:48:00.003+08:00

ohwells. been busy. busy busy busybody. lol

okies, if you fine my post is about the same each time, you can gladly leave.
nth much to say too.

monday:
mum was on medical leave cus she had some injection due to some complication in her body. (wahhh sooo chim!)
dad was on leave cus he was clearing his 2006 annual leave. (my dad works too hard. haha)
my brother, nvm, he's leaving for NS soon. so yeahs hols.
my sis, didnt want to go to school since ALL of us were at home.

ohwells. brother went out with his frens. and i persuaded my parents to bring me out to shop.
we headed to arab st to have lunch arnd that area. and mum forced my sis to buy clothes at bugis. so yeahs, headed there and shopped. didnt i knw that the girls were shopping there too.

then headed to SIM LIM SQUARE. cus mum wanted to see VAIO laptops.
after that headed to this small korean grocery store that my dad recommended and bought ALOT of choco pies. haha nice nice(:
took a bus with my mum opposite NAFA where we then headed to VIVOCITY(:
cus i wanted to buy shoes.
my shoes? CROCS! HAHA. dad wanted me to buy fer the comfort of my legs. LOL.
threw away my ZARA shoes at that spot too since it was smelly and with 3 holes coming to 4 at the base of the shoe.

tuesday:
school. school cus there was FOP meeting with the lecturers. had to introduce ourselves and our roles to them. of course, i was early. haha. and had to wait and wait and wait.
midori and i suggested lunch at KAP's Macs. so fengxia, jesline, tzechow, samuel, me and midori headed there together. was on our way out of the school till i saw peiru and terence.

in attempt to say hello to them, mr saliva basket decided to scare by trying to spit at me. while i screamed at the top of my lungs. followed by the laughter frm mr terence lim.
"FOP MEETING AH?" guess the only reason why im busy is because of those 3 letters.

watched midori's tv about hi5 and had tzechow and samuel to entertained us. was funny. seriously LOL.
left with jesline. headed home but reached late. 430pm. omg man. frm 930 till 430. i must be crazy.

wednesday:
dr tan saw me wheeling arnd the pdi studio on tuesday and asked me to come fer a focus grp session with them. didnt want to actually but then just headed with sameul and tzechow agreeing on comin. haha. WAS LATE! but nvm. many more were later (:
saw janice and shujun in school. LOL. and many many familiar faces. ((:

meetin lasted fer 2hrs. and was filled with ALOT of laughters. dr tan managed to explained to me on the much awaited question "what is solid thinking?" frm darren tan. haha.
and i must do well fer year 2. oh man. so scared now.

went to town with evon & fadzli. we each had our own plans. but heaed for lunch first. evon met dexter so 4 of us had lunch. fadzli left to meet his fren. while i left to meet naz & yus.
helped naz fer her NUM slippers. ahhhhh hot guy! -.-
then headed back to PSS fer the UG combined meeting.
was hilarious. cus red cross kept emphasising on the importance of safety. that it drove me nuts. lol.
so being the secretary of the event, im writing minutes and proposals. LOL. tough job i must say.
ohwells.

so busy qudsia has to leave now. and make way fer her other busy stuff. ):
next week! busy weeeeeeek. )):

2008-03-30T17:30:00.002+08:00

hello hello

my voice? coming back soon. hehe.

plenty plenty of water((:

ohwells.

celebrated bday bash fer my brother & sister at carousel. royal plaza at scotts hotel(:

wonderful dinner(:

hehe.

photos? erms. not now. haha

wasnt talking much on both my way there and back.

was thinking alot. lyk really thinking.

2 more weeks and school's starting.

and i havent gotten alot of things done.

one, prolly because my wardrobe is in a total mess.

and i haven sort out the clothes to wear once school's start.

next, is my terrible horrible hair.

mum & sis are constantly bugging me to get a haircut.

while me, i want blue hair! omg omg. think too far.

dad almost choke again during dinner last nyte.

but ohwells. no blue hair fine. but but, i think ill look diffrent.

i dun want to tie my hair to school anymore.

hahah! lol lol

qudsia' gonna look different. haha.

okok

shud check my diary to see a free slot.

and im off to the salon. (:

jayjay woke me up at 310am this morning.

no wonder i woke up late.

and and, had this weird dream.

hmmmm, what does it says. hmmmmm

2008-03-28T22:26:00.002+08:00

pacing pacing to my best~ =) says:

whenever u angry

pacing pacing to my best~ =) says:

u write the word..

pacing pacing to my best~ =) says:

patient.. slowli

pacing pacing to my best~ =) says:

lol

qudsia juwanda says:

i think so

qudsia juwanda says:

usually i breathe slowly

qudsia juwanda says:

must really really cool down

pacing pacing to my best~ =) says:

lol

qudsia juwanda says:

anger managment

my voice? not back yet. ):
so sad. very sad.
didnt do much today.
just went to doc's in the morning.
then had lunch and rested alot at home.
been sleeping alot lately.
didnt go to school today.
various reasons. told mingxi bout it (:

many many conversations. hehe
im happy fer now.
plenty of water. and i shall be fine((:
dinner tmr(: yes!

2008-03-27T13:31:00.004+08:00

one week.
one tiring week.
i think i can seriously die.

ohwells.
camp camp camp.
im sure everyone had fun.
me? how bout me?
hmmmm, seriously, tellin you, it was 2nd nyte onwards that was fun.

because because, first day was hell
you have 3 bastards and 1 bitch.
who gave me serious hell.
wats so fucking funny about my name?
even my seniors dont make fun of it lyk you guys did.
i felt so hurt. but i still smile.
you guys dissapear here and there.
and i keep trying to keep my anger down.
not to complain to jakin cus i will only trouble him more.

i think i did give you guys a piece of my mind.
just watch out. just WATCH out.

night walk was funny. cus i was rule number #5. if you encounter any problems, call qudsia. if you phone connection is low, scream qudsia.

when you work with ppl, you know very well how the person is eventually.
i see sooo many true colours. and i dunnoe whether they were good or bad.
ohwells.
thank you to group 1. thank you so much fer making me smile.
thank you so much for makin me happy.
thank you. thank you.

if you didnt say we were slow.
if you didnt say as if i was such a weak leader.
i wud have gotten the module time i wanted.
yuxiang had to cool me down.
and so is my whole class.
and i seriously put the whole fucking blame on you.

food was nice on 2nd nyte.
jakin kept asking if food was okies. -.-
thanks. it was better frm then on.

campus tour human bowling was fun.
without 3 bastards. my grp was in much cooperation after that.

the night was fun.
and fadzli was crazy.
sometimes i waonder if he took his medication or not.
practically shouting and having too much fun.
madness he was.
i played with kevin. he was funny. telling me names to bully. hahaha.
and wenkiong's bday bash was fun.
i hope he had fun(:

thanks shao wei fer giving him tat.
sorry wen kiong cus we had to bully him to dance.
which eventually he didnt.
and and, almost the whole class was there.
they made me happy (: seriously happy((:
i love 1p01.

pokemon and final fantasy was funny.
haha. snorlex not responding*.
and macs at 3am. and thanks to shao wei i still got my ice lemon tea(:

ohwells.
it was 3rd day.
and we saw photos frm last year's camp
and there it was, edwin and terence's photo eating.
hahaha. funny funny.

we learnt cheers and had prizes.
thank you shu jun. you gave me a bag of marshmallows.
and the kenichi look alike. HAHA. and joseph. was fucking funny.
so wat if bitch thought us the magnum force cheer.
we had the whole of grp 4 doing tat! haha.

samuel can really shake his butt((:

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO QURAISHIA.
im sorry i wasnt there to celebrate your bday.
i hope you had fun.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY NEO WEN KIONG(:
the best we cud give you was that bash(:

and fer myself?
a good rest. to cool things down.
pretty much tired with too much hell.

mum always say:
"life is hard and often unfair"- hal urban

2008-03-20T22:48:00.003+08:00

ever felt fucking horrible?
lyk you know the world does not revolve around you
but at the same time, you got to cater to everyone's needs.
and where was mine when i needed them the most?
):

after a massive long conversation that lasted till 3am, of course i wasnt gg to be able to wake up early
my voice sound as if im croaking.
its alryte, despite all tat im still early fer school.
this time, learnt my lesson, didnt wait fer lincoln(:

things werent really gg my way.
with shao yee showing attitude, and stuff.
it was possible to hold onto ur laughter.
seriously, i dunnoe wat kind of person he is.
but HELLO, first mpression counts.
we are in a polytechnic and theres isnt tight disicpline here.
you sound as if none of us did the right thing.
ohwells. oh fucking well.
yes, last year there were cock ups.
we do learn frm mistakes.
and we'll do something better than yours.
but i think jakin was saying the right thing.
different people has a different approach.
& i prefer someone was who is nice at the first place.
so if u yourself show me attitude, you would see, i wundt care(:

what's someone wearing underwear and a belt on?
what has cracking nuts & cracking fingers have in common?

i made a new motto fer myself.
not to disappoint my seniors.
fer no apparent reason, i feel so energise to really start year 2 -.-

it felt really empty without you.

got to get ready fer camp soon ):